poiny shoes and soccer jerseys. thats what dumb whores look like. so im not sterile, but they gave me valium. so sleepy. . . . i dream of happiness. of someone to make me happy beyond forever. someone to take my pain away and just to hold me. empty beds are a punishment for an undone crime i belive. guilty. as. charged. AAAAAAH i miss being wanted. even if i was fooling myself.