[I'm.not.writing.my.goodbyes]

Listening to: Guernica - Brand New
Feeling: wretched
Ever since I was young your word is the word that always won. Worry and wake the ones you love. A phone call I'd rather not receive. Please use my body while I sleep. My lungs are fresh and yours to keep, Kept clean and they will let you breathe. Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry? I am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind. Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these, so I sat alone and waited out the night. The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed. So I'm asking you to shine it on and stick around. I'm not writing my goodbyes. I submit no excuse. If this is what I have to do I owe you every day I wake. If I could I would shrink myself and sink through your skin to your blood cells and remove whatever makes you hurt but I am too weak to be your cure. Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry? I am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind. Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these, so I sat alone and waited out the night. The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed. So I'm asking you to shine it on and stick around. I'm not writing my goodbyes. I'm not letting you check out. You will beat this starting now and you will always be around. I'm there to monitor your breathing I will watch you while you're sleeping. I will keep you safe and sound. Does anybody remember back when you were very young? Did you ever think that you would be this blessed? Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these, so I sat alone and waited out the night. The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed. So I'm asking you to shine it on and stick around. I'm not writing my goodbyes.... [Brand.New]
5: listen don't say i don't care you fucking retard Wow, I have no idea what to say at all. All I know is it's still not over and I hate that....
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LOOKIE AT YOU! You updated!! :) I LOOVE BRAND NEW and their song mixtape.. Im so glad you're back though! How have you been and WHERE?! Hope you had a great weekend! Update us!
Bethany!
[Anonymous]
hey =) cool diary
[Anonymous]
he coolXP

you....also have a gun.....to your head?
That's such an amazing song. Its one of those songs that takes you to a certain moment in your life and you feel everything you felt and you're like, holy shit, this music is real. Brand new kicks ass.
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