...swear to shake it up...

by saveyourself55
Listening to: p@n!c-time2dance
Feeling: longing
♥i love jared mccullion and everyone else can go fuck themselves.♥ what a great weekend with my best friend... another fucking month till we get to see each other again....damn. i hate this...well at least I get to see him SOMETIMES...i missed him as he was driving down 42nd street...it's gunna get bad. never looked better & you can't stand it
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...rather waste some time with you...

by saveyourself55
Feeling: longing
rather waste some time with you... so i've been in college for a month and so much shit has happened...i love it and i hate it...i miss jared and that's all i can think about right now so bear with me... i have come to the realization that he is the only person who can truly understand me no matter what...i also realized that he is the only person who can handle me...it is possible that i might die alone...but i know i'll have him till forever...i love him so much...just thought i'd share...
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...what hurts more...

by saveyourself55
Feeling: abandoned
i HATE surveys... TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The SurveyName:JeanBirthday:08[03]87Birthplace:Lake Success, NYCurrent Location:Bayside, NY♥Eye Color:blueHair Color:brownHeight:5'3''?Right Handed or Left Handed:rightyYour Heritage:italian, irish, germanThe Shoes You Wore Today:my chucks♥Your Weakness:sugarYour Fears:drowning, being burned to deathYour Perfect Pizza:bbq buffalo chickenGoal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:not kill my roommateYour Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:hahaThoughts First Waking Up:"i have to pee"Your Best Physical Feature:eyelashesYour Bedtime:8.oo ;)Your Most Missed Memory:being with jared...♥Pepsi or Coke:pepsi [with lime preferably]MacDonalds or Burger King:mcdonaldsSingle or Group Dates:singleLipton Ice Tea or Nestea:guersChocolate or Vanilla:chocolate!Cappuccino or Coffee:cappuccinoDo you Smoke:neverDo you Swear:fuck yesDo you Sing:all the timeDo you Shower Daily:every morningHave you Been in Love:maybe...Do you want to go to College:yesDo you want to get Married:absolutelyDo you belive in yourself:sometimesDo you get Motion Sickness:noDo you think you are Attractive:no0o0o0oAre you a Health Freak:nopeDo you get along with your Parents:for the most partDo you like Thunderstorms:yes!! [jared...♥]Do you play an Instrument:if that's what you want to call it ;)In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:noIn the past month have you Smoked:noIn the past month have you been on Drugs:noIn the past month have you gone on a Date:noIn the past month have you gone to a Mall:yesIn the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:no [but i'd love to]In the past month have you eaten Sushi:noIn the past month have you been on Stage:noIn the past month have you been Dumped:noIn the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:noIn the past month have you Stolen Anything:noEver been Drunk:yes [but not by my own choice]Ever been called a Tease:noEver been Beaten up:yeah RIGHTEver Shoplifted:a piece of gum when i was 8How do you want to Die:in my sleepWhat do you want to be when you Grow Up:pediatricianWhat country would you most like to Visit:italyIn a Boy/Girl..Favourite Eye Color:blueFavourite Hair Color:whateverShort or Long Hair:either Height:not too much taller than meWeight:not too fatBest Clothing Style:whateverNumber of Drugs I have taken:zer0Number of CDs I own:not manyNumber of Piercings:1 [so far...]Number of Tattoos:zer0Number of things in my Past I Regret:zer0CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!
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...I would still die for you...

by saveyourself55
Feeling: awkward
Y in a car underwater with time to kill thinking back i forgot to tell you this i didn't care that you left and abandoned me what hurts more is... I would still die for you... I'm finally back from my awesome vacation...it was so wonderful to see my all-time favorite person in the world...we went to cedar point, ohio...wow, it was so flippin awesome. I devote myself to the dragster. Anyhoo..we had such an awesome time [well I know I did...] and I hate being here working...I also saw ria and lauren!! so all around, it was a rockin weekend...now I don't get to see anyone until the end of august...and jared, i don't even know when [*tear face*]...deff in November for the Bahamas but that's the only definite!!! that's THREE MONTHS...I can't do it...I'll have to go visit him in Lancaster and maybe go shopping [wink wink]...soooo...i hate working but i got my pacheck for $860 for 2 weeks so yay...and maybe I'll get to drive to CT for the rest of August and save alot of money...we'll see. my birthday is next wednesday...what'd you get me?
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Listening to: incubus-i.miss.you
Feeling: anxious
I'm rackin' my brain trying to comprehend how, for some unknown reason, our status will remain as friends I'm destroying my mind trying to understand how with little to no effort you've got me eating out of the palms of your hands but regardless of what happens next you're my beloved, you just don't know it yet tonight I made a secret oath to keep chasing after you♥ and I am not going to stop whether you like it or not I friggin' love you!! [my smile's an open wound without you♥]
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