Today has been terrible and it's only 12.22. As soon as I woke up I got bitched at for not taking chicken bones to the garbage can. I mean as soon as I woke up. I'm not a "morning person" by anyone's standards so that pissed me off right from the bat. Then I couldn't do my wash cause there wasn't enough of it. Well, what am I supposed to do? I'm not gonan be home for the next 3 days and I have no clean clothes, at all. Then I got bitched at once again for using teh wrong remote cause we apparently have 3 here and I used the wrong one for the couch I was sitting on. What the fuck is that? Now I hafta go to these parties and I'm in a terrible mood, but I hafta suck it up and paint on a smile. I do it often enough, but I hate hiding how I feel. I don't wanna bring everyone else down, even though I was told I do anyway which really makes me feel bad. Once again my best isn't good enough. Tomorrow should be fun, uh huh, yeah. Maybe if I keep telling myself that. I don't know "I've got a bad feeling about this"(m/ TBS m/). I just think it's gonna be awkward cause I dont' really hang out wiht those people, you know? I don't know I really hope it goes well cause a hell of a lot more is riding on it then just one New Year's. Last night, I don't even kow what to say about it. I really don't. This all better work out or I don't know what I'm gonna do.... So go on and scream Scream at me I'm so [far away] I won't be .b.r.o.k.e.n. again I've got to breathe I can't keep going under.... [Evanescence]