I'm feeling very cross and frustrated. I hate fighting, but I hate it more when I'm deliberatly offensive, apologize for it, and get hung up on. Aaaargh. I wrote a practice essay for English... goodness, I have no hope of passing anything. I manage fine with internals, but externals? Fuck that. The conclusion is awful. The rest of the essy isn't so bad, but the conclusion just won't come right. Why am I struggling so much with my best subject? I feel terribly depressed about it. It shatters any confidence which I ever have in myself when I can't do what I'm good at.