Alright so I'm sitting here in front of my computer in tears. Yeah I don't even know why o.o. You all know I'm happy so why the fuck am I crying? Hmm? Well let's see. I was thinking and everything all rushed back to me from when I was hurt. God that's gonna remain a deep scar I think for a while. Yeah I just keep thinking my love will be crushed again. I seem to be living in this nightmare that happens over and over to me. I don't want me to be shot again in the heart. I hope that this will be a sign that I'm losing it. I'm slowly drifting away from everthing that I have now. Why does something so happy make me feel bad the day I can't seem to figure this out. I can't seem to understand the way I feel. I fear myself losing my mind again. I fear that I will lose myself and maybe one day Kristina won't exist anymore. I don't want that to happen. That's why I need him to help me... I need him and he's the only one that's making this how it is. I don't know... ~Kristina