So... I was sick today and I just stayed home. Not to mention that I'm sick of people. It's killing me to be here all alone... So did I ever tell you what really happend? Well if I havn't I'll write about it. Alright so let's see. A while ago Austin told me that whole death going out thing. And I was upset for a while. I eventually got over him by hiding myself in the mask of a character I made up online, Elizabeth Swann. I asked people to call me that, I would print out roleplays and it was almost like my life. I spent countless hours on the computer roleplaying this girl who I thought was just what I wanted. No she wasn't perfect. She drank, and she cut, and yet she still had guys that liked her. I thought maybe if I was like her guys would like me more. I got lost into her life and it got quite odd. Friends were ignoring me when I'd talk about my "life," and I really didn't have a life of my own. Yeah I still went out and did stuff, I was just lost in this other world. Friends were worried about me and everything was weird. I was a wreck. Then I met this guy named Simon. He was really nice to me, yes you all know about this. Well he'd call me just to talk and he texed me cute things like little hearts and stuff. I slowly was pulling away the mask I hid over myself. Lizzy was starting to die away in my spirit I was feeling happy again. But then his calls just stopped, no texts or anything. I was wondering what was wrong finally on friday I asked him to go to the mall he said he'd try he never got back to me and then saturday he told me he couldn't like me. So yeah there's my love life for you. It sucks just as I do. I suck at life. I can't believe I let him get to me like this. I can't understand why I had to let my walls come down like they did. I just want to put them back up. Not with Lizzy but with a wall from my friends. I will probably be snappy or I'll ignore you or I'll make you feel bad because I'm weird like that. I hate the way I am which is part of my problem. Alright well I don't wanna say anymore. The other day when I was taking band pictures I almost passed out lol. Half the band almost did XD. ~kristina