so i just completely broke down last night. my love left for her aunt's house for her cousin's b-day party. her aunt doesn't like her boyfriend's calling HER house so i got yelled at by my love because she got yelled at, that made me feel great. i was fucking crying and missing her like no other and she starts out by yelling at me to ask why the fuck i called. "...because i miss you..." guess i shouldn't have called, i dunno, wasn't exactly greeted the warmest. so we talked about things for awhile and i'm still feeling mildly self-destructive from last night. she said she was going to call today while she was over there so i'll probably get off-line soon. it's just that i've been waiting by the phone all day and not a single ring, i don't know what's going on. i just hope i can talk to her....i feel so alone....i wish like hell that i was with her right now....but no...can't happen...what else is new with my life...it sucks when she's gone. and then the fact that i can't call over there cuz it's not polite and i'd get my head chewed off again. well byes, SEE YOU IN HELL... ~Maynard~