well...i'm not sure why i'm feeling all down and depressed...but i am. i wish i could be happy but i guess it's just the situation i'm in. there's a possibiliy i won't get to see my love at all this weekend and i'm going down state for all of Sunday...derf. i want to be happy...but can't...this is really starting to scare me considering what i've been through before. i don't want to go through that again...it wasn't fun the first time around. and for those of you who may not know...i cut myself and my great and wonderful brother told my parents and they took me to see a shrink...oh well...guess that's how they would react...can't blame em. just want to be happy and i'm starting to get scared............please help.....