"like these songs were going to save me" --son, ambulance I have been having a dredful time trying to find myself lately, and I feel awful about all the mess that I am. John is having a terrible time, which of coarse, puts my mood on a downfall toward obsession. With all these problems I am trying to handle, I can't find time to register my own faults, let alone problems, and I find it very important for a person to always make time for themself to be healthy, and I do feel rather unhealthy. I used to take an hour from everyday to examine my own life, and that just has not happened in a long time, and I dare say it's affecting my mood horribly. hobble sway. Nothing magical has happened yet, I am waiting to be swept away by a magnificent boy, and I am falling deeper and further for the one who doesn't want a thing to do with me romantically. These crushes on friends, they never get past you, and you never seem to escape them. love