fuck

by minorthreat
Listening to: fall out boy
Feeling: buzzed
they thought moving away from my family and old friends would help me recover but it didnt. they thought moving to cali seeing new places and new faces would save the oz. of soul i had.but that dosent seem to be the case. lol shit here is the same as there.people where saying go on and find yourself while your there but wut if i already am fine with who i became? im one who beleaves in having no regreats i mean im happy i m an "drug addict" i call it having fun so wut if i love to drink and party im young i can do that. but its kidda hard here seeing that i dont know anybody. i dont know its just not fun im always trapped in this house bored as hell. i have to go and watch the kids
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i really like ur diary

looks hot
atleast your parents were cool about it trying to send you to cali and shit. im on probation around the same friends and get tempted every day. my mom checks my eyes every day 3 times because i have to check in. i was a speed addict and if i do it one more time i get sent to boot camp maybe even tyc...jail for juveniles.i have already been to a rehab place for overdosing. My boyfriend sold drugs to my best friend that killed her!.okay appreciate.
i had wrote too much but I feened so bad that i pulled alot of my hair out on the floor crying til i fell asleep if i could knawing on my teeth and my tounge where it would have indentions and bleed and had so much anxiety that it squeezed my stomach and i cant explain it but it made me feel like shitting my pants and throwing up! quit it while you can
i LOVE fall out boy.
And i read that question authority thing at warped tour. It ruined my whole day.
no,i don't eat meat anymore. and it's really hard to not drink milk. because thats a big thing for my family. So i plug my nose and close my eyes when i drink it now, (( which is VERY RARE )).

it's like that book ruined my fucking life. hahahah

what about you? are you vegan or anythingg related to that?
you do have to be ready and yes it is hard but im practically being put in the spot that if i didnt quit then i would be locked up for a year or two and its like i still have it in my mind im going to do it one day.its been 3 months and i still Feen , i even relapsed.its hard my mom used to be a crack addict homeless prostitue/stripper/dealer so i could go wherever and whenever i wanted she even smoked pot with me..now shes strict cause probation
damn.
i wish i could be as dedicated as you.
before i read that book, i never really THOUGHT about a dead chicken on my plate. or anything like that, you know?
and now everytime i drink milk or something related to that book, i freak out and i can't stop thinking about it and i remember all the facts. AHHHH. it's horrribbbllleee.

I don't even like cheese, so thats a start for me =) well, sorta. hahah ebcause i LOVE pizza,mac n cheese..hah
well shiiit. 3 years is a LONG time. i was thinking about going vegan, but i was like..shit..then i wouldnt eat ANYTHING but vegetables and i HATE vegetables. carrots = OKAY. not great, but i can deal. hahah. i've at least looked up into going vegetarian, and i MIGHT. i don't know if i could make it though, i can be known as a cheater on this kinda things. like..i can't STAND diets. fuckkk them.
yeah, something corporate is awesome. i would have to say either i want to save oyu or hurricane are my fav songs. well, pretty much anything from leaving through the window.
well..you know what they say..

fake meat is better than no meat, right?

well..nobody really says that..i just made it up. but people SHOULD start saying it! =)
Rancids one of the top dogs, anyone w/ Hellcat records is rather rocking =D
is that rodger rabbits wife...can't memember name, if so, koolness =D
-Razzle
thanks. i love my hair too. but if you ever want dreads, get someone else to do 'em for ya. took me 5 and a half hours to do a mediocre job!
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