Im hurting so much right now I don’t know what to do. All of my friendships are falling apart. They don’t care about the friendships, and im left with nothing again. Everyone I care about has abandoned me. I don’t understand. Is this what happens when you let yourself trust people? They see that you let yourself be vulnerable to. I let them know that I care about them and they dispose of me. I think this is another lesson that I must never forget, even though I always do, never to open up to anyone. It kills me so much. Why are people so cruel to everyone that loves them. And whats worse, I cant even talk about this to my mom, possibly one of the only people who gives two shits about me. It would break her heart. I just want to know why this is happening to me again. And not just with one person, but three. it would be a little better if it all didn’t come at once. I don’t even know how to carry myself around these people. I cant bring it up…because ive tried that, and it didn’t go very well. Why does everyone leave me in the end? Every time I meet someone, they really like me, and they want to hang out a lot, and talk all the time and everything…and then, they suddenly stop caring and just leave me. I didn’t think I would let this happen again. Or I at least thought I wouldn’t let myself care. My hearts completely broken, thrice in a very short period of time, and I doubt anyone cares at all. people stop breaking me. why do people find me as the person they want to hurt. All I want is for someone to care about me, and instead of using me to appease them when theyre in the middle of a dilemma, id just like someone to care enough to really ask me whats going on, and if theres something id like to say. But of course, no one cares enough about anyone else to do that, which is why nothing I feel is ever talked about. the one time i tried to open up, i was cut off TWICE with a question about clothes. is everyone really like this? this is what makes me KNOW that people really never care. Maybe I need to be more selfish? I see that everyone loves the selfish bitch. I just wish someone cared about me im so so so so sad.