i have been feeling relatively good, lately. knock wood. the house is finished being decorated. i still have my hand after finishing with the evil tree. the pio side of the family is done for christmas. i felt so greedy and kind of guilty and selfish at the same time. for the past two years, the aunts and uncles only buy presents for their godchild on that side of the family. i like that better. its so much easier. but there is one problem...my godfather is in florida. everyone else is in pa. last year they sent my gift up with their son, but he didnt come this year either. it felt so akward watching all of my cousins opening their gifts while i stood in the doorway. even the boyfriends got gifts. i really felt like an outcast. oh well. whats done is done. we all had a good time in spite of the whole family thing. even mom had a good time (rolls eyes). i always forget how well i get along with my cousins and how much i enjoy hanging out with them. i wishe we lived closer. im pretty sure my aunt is coming up from florida, but shh! its a secret. im kind of psyched about that. we haven't done anything with mom's side of the family yet. apparently, her parents, brothers, and their families are coming over christmas day. then we are all going to her parent's on the 26 to really celebrate because her sister (who is working christmas day) and my cousin are coming up from jersey. that should be interesting. another fun filled evening watching the boys play video games and listening to the adults gossip. can't wait for that one... im pretty sure there will be a party here sometime during the break. i dont know when. i dont really care who comes or what goes down. i just feel like having a party. ok. so i guess that's it for now. random update on my life. exciting huh..? anyway...back to that chem portfolio! laur