A distant pain On a night so long ago Life shattered on a lie Betrayal sticks deep That night life almost ended Looking back I wish it would have Now I live a life that should not be Stuck in eternal hardship Why did I listen Cold steel upon the roof of my mouth The taste of death would have been so welcome Now I live on false hopes and dreams I've grown up I see my empty fantasies for what they are Now hope is a shell of what it use to be I wish I could find some release Some stairway out of hell My tears soak the forsaken ground beneath my feet And maybe, just maybe tonight, my blood will as well.