well its a new year. Now time to make something of it. Me and tasha broke up a few months ago and life generally sucks. But its tolerable. Tasha almost died last night rom over doing it on the booze, for us being broke up she best be glad i came over and was there to keep her going when she went inot seizures. Gifta are good for something in life i guess. That was rather rough and having the idiots at the party be more then useless in an emergency was infuriating. trying to keep some one from chokcing on vomit while moving dead weight and having people keep getting in the way is not very fun. But i manage it took charg of a drunken rable and got done what needed to be done. Got tasha snapped out of the alchohal poisoning and the situaion was better. Though im sure she will have about 50 bruises she wont remember in the morning were they came from. Ah the things i do. well that made my night suck as well as the lack of booze since i had that nagging feeling i needed to be fullly sober all night. Which i did. Oh well i was the perfect sucky end for a sucky year. Hopefully this year will be better. Since ill be starting at sprint again here real soon its already looking up .

well i got a job at Betty's dinner down the street from were i am living. It is a sucky job washing dishes but it will make things so much easier for tasha. Its been hard on here supporting us both. I am glad that i can finally help out with the bills and such. Got hired on full time which is good. oh well thats about all thats happened to me recently life has been rather bland. Me and tasha are still doing great. Its nice ot be in a long tern sttable relationship for once.

well i got a job at Betty's dinner down the street from were i am living. It is a sucky job washing dishes but it will make things so much easier for tasha. Its been hard on here supporting us both. I am glad that i can finally help out with the bills and such. Got hired on full time which is good. oh well thats about all thats happened to me recently life has been rather bland. Me and tasha are still doing great. Its nice ot be in a long tern sttable relationship for once.

well i sold my car today. well not exactly today but in about 2 weeks. yay that was faster then expected since i was going to but up the sales info today but fate prempted that. some guys that work on cars as a hobby came up to my house this morning and asked if the car was for sell and i told them it was bam all done. that was pretty damned easy after all. hehe getting more then i paid for it out of the deal too. now if everyone that owned me money could pay me back id e doing all right. been getting the interveiw phone calls so thast a plus too :)

put in about 10 applications today. figured thats a good start. i really dont care what i get as a job righ now as long as it is a job. I have to many things to worrry about o have to worry about were i am going to get my next meal. So hopefully if i can keep this going i will be able to find a decentt job that I can stick with till i get my debt paided off and then start looking into a career that i want to do. Hopefully if i can keep a job for an entire year i can start getting back to school and getting that silly education so i can make something of myself. i am tired of this half ass jobs and the lay offs that I have been dealing with over the last ferw years. oh well who knows. Got the smarts and the drive to be successfull now tto get the money and the motivation to do something witth my life versus waste it away on nothing.

Well things have been going ok for me. me and tasha have been together for 5 months now and things are only getting better with that relation. tasha will be getting her apartment in a 12 days and that will make things alot easier for both of us. its been rough trying to see each other when she it living with her freinds. I am overall happy with my life and am looking forward to the future I am seeing for myself. though both night and day i am haunted by dark energies. I am grateful that I have been able o fight them off so far. But they attack at me almost everynight and i am beginning to grow tired of it, But till it can overwhelm me there really isnt any point to worry. This wouldnt be the first time i have had to deal with negative spirits. Oh well. Still looking for work. though i havent honestly been trying as hard as I should be. I nneed to just crack down and get on with it, But i have felt so drained lately. though even that is clearing up. just waiting and watching silently as i tend to do. eventually the darkness I see comiing into tthe life of those i care about and watch over will pass and things will be more normal again.

start work in the morning "woot" but early sigh night

since it seems fun hers the other half of that test thingy. http://kevan.org/johari?name=archangeld

well on a positive note for once I will be starting work on monday yay for that. its all good cause now I will have the money i need to get some stuff done and get my life back on track from this little slip and crash off the rails.

my video card died on me i am saddened. I am getting an old one from a freind of mone. Hopefully it will be good enough for the video games. on a positive note, I am going in for an interveiw at deffenbaugh tommorrow and hopefully i will get the job, specially since they just fired 3 people aand are already short handed. Oh well its well past midnight and I have to be u by 5 in the morning. so i should probably get to bed

to lazy to make it a link but atleast this seems kinda interesting :) http://kevan.org/nohari?name=archangeld

Well for an update I ended up having to move back in with my parents. I have not been able to find any work I am poor and tired. I feel my self slowly falling back into depression again but it has nothing to to do with the recent past. I have been dating a girl names tasha and she thought she was pregnant, and she was. She made it for a bout a month before she miscarried. This kinda thing places a weird sense of dread on me. Mingled with a agonizing selfish relief. its been really hard on here. She just found out yesterday that she had had a miscarriage when she went into for an pregnacny exam. She has been having nightmares since then. I watched over her last night and guarded her sleep but i cant do that every night. I wish things could of went better but they didnt so know i have to help her through this hard time. She wants a baby really badly and most likely cant do to some of the problems she has. That part of why it is so hard on her. Though the timing was bad for both of us, the thought of having a kid is something thats been on my mind more and more and more as I get older. Im not finacially ready yet but i could of made it if I had too. Oh well time will move on and pains will heal. Its still just rough.

stupid site cancelled my previous rant when it i tried to save it. Since i already ranted it all out, i will do the abreviated version. i got fired for gay reasons, basically they took away my abilty to keep busy. They put me on full time phone troublshooting with the cable company that Sprint works orders for and maintains. i got fired for not looking busy when the head sup of our team came out of a meeting. I was on hold with a call and was flipping through a book while i was wating. leaning back in my office chair relaxing for a minute ... while on hold trouble shooting. I was on hold for about 5 mintutes. apparently i should of been looking busy. i got taken off hold. Said goodbye cause the call was done and got back to work. the sup had sat downn in the chair by the table in my cube and i had a breif chat asking him how his vacation was and stuff. i even asked if they had anything they were going to assign to us phone people since call volumes were low and w were not all that busy day to day. it was about 1:30 went to lunch for my hour that I am scheduled 1/2 hour later like i am supposed to went back to work and they came up to fire me when i was helping anohter person with a call they had gotten and werent sure what to do with. All in all it was gay. I got escorted out of the building told I was doing a sucky job...which counters the point of ur doin a good job of last week that i got. i am working with the contracting agency to get another job in sprint. It really pissed me off that i got fired for not working "enough" when earlier that day i did close to 200 cancel orders and 50 disconnect orders which i can guarantee is a lot more then the rest of the phone did that same day. matter of fact I was usually the first person to volunteer for something extra to do cause i was bored with having nothing to do. In a odd kinda way its actually good cause now i will get a new job with a much nicer sups, since i was warned when i took this job that they were pricks. The best part of it all was that most of the people i worked with expectted me to get hired on full time. Well guess they were wrong oh well. i have jury duty on monday and hopefully i wont get selected for a case . that would not be a good thing right now. but it might happen specially since i just lost my job and that means i am availible for cases with less adverse affect on my job. Well fuck it all. Atleast i have a grand put back so i can pay the bills

yay by the end of the week i will be no longer able to live in the townhouse that i have been paying rent on. The landlord got pissed at us being like 2 days late with the rend and decided to go back on the verbal agreement that he had made for me to be added to the lease. Only the lease never got written up. So he decided that he was goping to kick me out for not being on the lease and living in the residence. So basically I really dont have a choice but to move back in with my folks till I get resituated again. yay only been here for like 6 months and bam he decides to be an asshole and kick me out. We tried to fight it but he put his foot down and basically srewed me. So i am techincally homeless. just found out today and all. have to go call my parents and ask if its ok for me to move back in which sucks cause I just really finished moving all my stuff out. Oh well I am sure it wont be a problem. Just sucks alot that I am no longer able to live in the place I have been paying for. Stupid asshole. Well back to life. guess I will have to go get a job back in blue springs and try with the other sprint contractors on a later date to see if I can get a better paying position back with them. Well to top it all off today I decided to stop smoking. Well that didnt work. Oh well back to my pathetic existance.

well i have been summoned to the independence court house for jury duty on november 7th. yay well luckily it is my day off. hopefully i wont be selected for jury duty cause then i will miss out on work and be exra poor. That will suck. Hopefully it wont take more then a day and i can get back to work and make the money...knowing my luck though ill get stuck in some month long trial and not be able to pay my rent or something. oh well get to go tell my boss whats up tommorrow ya for civic duties

well im am all settled into my new place. Moved inot lees summit and got a good job. About time i got a move on with life again. Working at Sprint is well... working but its not bad, had worse. Things are going good. Still need to get a phone but once that happens things will be a little easier. Right now if any one needs to get ahold of me or just wants to say hi, contact me through my email demonraynne@yahoo.com. Hopefully ill get that phone thing taken care of soon. Well aside from being bored working mundane desk job and playing to much video games life is good.

i am at my computer doing absolutley nothing. Eventaully though i will be making peoples digital phone service work. Ive been sitting here since 8 in the morning waiting for passwords and well, programs that let me do my job, so bored this sucks

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Well started at Sprint three weeks ago. Like my new job pays well. Will be moving out at the end of the month. Moving to lees summit with my freind jon and justin. Yay finally getting somewhere. now for D&D quiz

So i called into work today mainly cause I worked to many hours in a hort period of time and am needing some rest so i dont get sick and secondly cause i hurt all over. Both of which are my fault. My job wakes me up at noon to see if i can come in early cause Ahely called in sick. I agree since i awake now anyways. So I go in on 4 hours of sleep and suffer through a 9 hour shift and all. Which sucked and i was damn near complelty drained and summoning inner will just to keep on my feet. The other reason is I am to nice of a person and some lady car ran out of gas right outside my entrance to the station that is up a big hill of now doom. So she brings in a gas tank prepays some gas and I know that that little gallon of gas isnt going to be enough to pressurize the gas tank after running it dry. But i was busy at the moment so I didnt think about it. So she gets here little bit of gas and of course it doesnt start. So me being nice I get a damnable idea to push here normal sized car up saiod hill of doom. Which I mamage to pull off cause im strong and all. But i had to push with enough force to leave indention in the back of her car were my hands where. Luckily some guy plled in and helped me finish the task. After that i was exhausted all day. Pushing a car up hill is by no means easy and it didnt help that it was wet. today because of that I am sore as hell. Should of gotten a damned tip from the lady but good deeds done I guess go down on the karmic ladder and move me up one point. But beh it hurts to move. I think the worst part is is that crazy shit like that is the perfeft form of strength training I am looking for. Bahahaha so one day in the future I will be purposlely pushing a car up hill. Which i think makes me crazy as all hell. Well thats actually the only thing thats actually happened to me that was interesting in the last week. Cursed mundane lifestyle that I live and all.