I'm tired of it, I'm tired of the fighting, the drama, everything that for some reason just loves to repeat itself. Silverpaw was doomed from the get go, I don't even know why I tried to resurrect it. Jess I hope to help you use your gift to regain some of the things you lost and miss so much but I don't think I can give you back you family. As for kelly, i'm a complete and total moron, I don't even know why I talk to you anymore, because it seems like all I can do is hurt and betray you, i still want you in my life but i don't want to hurt you anymore, i'll fifure out how to fix that little problem soon. Manders, I miss you, I haven't talked to you in forever and as soon as I find my little phonebook again I'll try to call you, we've got a lot to catch up on though most of our conversations seem to end up with a lot of awkward silence, I think it may be because we both have a lot of things we want to say but for some reason are afraid to let them out. David, you are my brother, you have been since my freshman year of highschool and always will be, we've shared experiences that I don't think any other pair of friends will ever experience and I need your strength and wisdom to help me out while I can't be there. But at the same time I need to ask yourself to place yourself on your knees, humble yourself, if you wish to lead then you must first learn to follow, if you wish to protect then you must first let others protect you. As for jess, you have a tendency to be arrogant and like to always be right, it's one of few flaws but it's a doosey, I have to ask you to step down and learn to compromise even if it means not getting exactly what you want or admitting that you're wrong. It's a mark of a good leader that can admit that she is not infallable. That's all I have to say, that's how I feel right now and that's the things that matter to me as far as things back home go, that's all i have to say about that, I'm just hungry as hell right now cause I haven't eaten in over 30 hours... i hate work.