so im happy right? well i am but i dont think my mind can process that feeling. last night i started crying. i just felt liek i needed ot. i dunno why. and im ahppy. i justtin that no matter how good my life is my mind will always find somtin to b upset about. i cried my self to sleep last night. tahts wierd. and i was talking to kelsey. we were at theboys swim tema practice and coach was like drrik and kyle are here. and i was like come on kelsey lets leave now. so when we were walking outside shes like did u want to leave justb/c of kyle. i was liek no but some of the reason. and shes lie b.c u dont liek him or u dont want to. and then i was like i dont want to. and i was like it was just sippost to b a water polo thing. and shes like yea well peopel tell me he flirts with everyone. and im liek wel a lot of times i do that to. like justin who i do not flirt wit but peoplet think i do. end of conversation so i was thinking and i lied kinda. i did like kyle but i woudl have never went out wit him. i just wanted to hook up during water polo. thats it he was hot we flirted it seemed. kewl. nothingmore. but i dunno i see him and mt stomack goes crazt and i dunnoits wierd. not as much as it used to but a lil. all i wanted to do was hook up now im completly over it it doesnt hurt me and that really wasnt ne of the reason i left. i just cant tell kelsey that b.c i dunno i cant tel n e one. i feel like a ho. but that was all i wanted and still want b.c never got it exceot not i dont feel like trying. karen kinda new a lil bit but just a lil not for sure. n e way ice skating this weekned. and i only have one scar. and brittani is coming in and i thinki had a break through wit my dad and karens dad is gunna get it soon i hope and uggrr life is good i dont feel liek i need to cry. ~*kisses*~korkie