I'm not very superstitious but God does being 13 suck. So, lets see, where should I begin? Oh, lets start with Doug. Doug is... amazing! There is no other word for him... thing is he doesnt like me. How would I know? Because, without my knowledge or approval, she asked him to go out with me, and when I say she, I mean SHE as in Amanda. Who gets every guy I like without even knowing it, and we happen to be best friends...! So, obviously I didn't want her to ask him to go out with me because it was so obvious to me that Doug liked Amanda! You know what? I think that she even knows that he likes her, but she doesn't like him back so she pushed him on me as soon as she found out I thought he was cute. Thats totally possible, since thats excactly what I did to Eleesha about Seth, I knew Seth liked me (possibly the only guy to do so) so I pushed Eleesha into liking him. But that worked out in the end because Seth totally changed his mind! But Doug hasnt. I sit across from Doug in 3 classes, do you have any idea how uncomfortable that is? ,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,. Another reason being thirteen sucks? My docter, who has been my docter my whole life, thinks I need to see a shrink. Because he thinks since I'm 13 and female that I must have a low self esteem and have an eating disorder. Also, he must think I want to skip school or something cause he keeps telling my mom that I'm "worrying" about something...???????????????? So todaym when I'm at the docter because the flu is going around and I've got it, he stops me when I'm leaving and tells me the story of the ugly duckling, then he tells me that I'm going to be a swan. A swan. A SWAN! A SWAN? Gosh. ,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,. and last but not least, my mom has a crush. On my new docter for acid reflex. Yeah, she keeps telling me in the car how gorgeous he is and crap. But when I totally freaked out, she told me that she thought he was gay and that "She doesn't think hes on the market anyway" like she is trying to reassure me. But all that did was freak me out more, because that is something you say when you think A guy is totally unattainable, but what if it turns out hes not? I mean, he isnt married, he might not be gay... what if he likes my mom back? I should just be happy for her, right? But what if they get married????? and when Andrew leaves for college in 2 years I will be left here with the two of them, acting like newlyweds or something equally disgusting!!! Oh yeah, did I mention that he is, like, 6 years younger then her??? I mean, I dont actually know this, he hasnt told us his age or anything, but god! he looks way younger... The fact that my mom would even consider dating, at her age! is outragious!!!!! plus totally freaky. God, she cant do this. Not now. If my docter thinks I'm worrying now, when I'm not worrying, wait till he sees me after all this!!!!!! Deliver me Jesus, this world is hell ps. v-day is in 2 days, my 13 v-day without ANYBODY though I dont care as much about that as I used too, I'd rather have nobody and let him live, then have somebody and have my brothers kill him.