sooo soo long I need to write this somewhere though. I went on this church trip to South Padre Island, Texas and now everythings different. One I met this guy named Davis who i thought I liked but was an asshole when I was upset so I don't like him anymore (the story is bigger and more complicated but its weird to think about it) My oldest brother James got diagnosed with Chronic Leukimia (which is way better then acute Leukimia, hes going to live) and from the day I got back I spent practically all my time with Meghan and Mandy and at the hospital. and I only cried once. I feel different now, freshman orientation is on August first and I'm in group G in the R wing. But things are different in another way. Meghan says I'm a cynic and Mandy says I'm a realist and its all on love and relationships. But all I think is that at least I have standards, god. I want someone extraordinary and to hell with everybody else. and of course everyone has views on that too. all that jazz about a perfect guy would get boring and lalala. Did I day he needed to be perfect??????? I don't some piece of shit guy whose imperfections will start showing as soon as the fun-new-boyfriend phase is over. I need someone whose flaws are right on surface from beginning to end. so shut up davis. mr. perfect. your flaws are unfixable. -------*-*-------- glad I said that :) Zac rocks my freaking socks