-It has been a pretty good day today got up about 10 and then got ready. Went out to eat at Damons and then rented some movies with my sister and her bf. I have decided that I really want a boyfriend just lately I just want that person who can sit by my side and appreciate me for me on another level. I have never had a real boyfriend so I just want that connection. I mean I am 19 and I know I have a lot of time but I feel like my life is missing something. I haven't had that significant other so I guess I can't say whether I want a bf or not but I just feel this way. I guess all I can do is let fate do its job and I know someday I will find someone just wish I could find him now. But anywho, the other day I got a letter from Heartland my college and I got excepted into Phi Theta Kappa. It is an Honor Society for Two year colleges. But you get an offer to join if you have achieved a GPA of 3.5 or higher. I was excited because school is important to me as many others but it just makes me feel good that I worked hard and got recognized for it. But anywho, again, lol, I think I am gonna try it out and see what happens, can't be that bad. I am always wanting people to come with me because I am afraid to mess up or something. That social anxiety thing. But anyways guess that is all for now. stubbs