everytime courtney does this and im so sick of feeling used. they fight and she turns 2 me then as soon as they make up im the invisible one again and im so fucking sick of it but if i say anything she just denies it. rrrrrrrrrrooooooooooaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!! im just having a crappy day. and natashia n me havnt really been talking. wat can i expect? not like were really even friends, we just have like 2 of the same classes and joke around sometimes. i sneak ran last night again and was so hungry i couldnt sleep, just tossed n turned w/ my stomache hurting. but its ok now it goes away after awhile its just sumtimes it pops up and my head aches.

i feel so wrong. like somethings missing in me and i dont know wat it is. i feel so empty and i feel like crying. i hope im better 2nite i wanna have fun at the rave. but wat can i wear???!!! i was thinking my black tank n that long skirt,the huge silver flower belt, mucho glitter, and little braids in my hair. im undecided.but l8r me courtney n maria r going shopping n i gotta get sum flipflops b4 my feet suffocate in these blah shoes. maybe ill find sumthing else 2 wear there.