reading natashias diary online just makes me want 2 cry... she says no one loves her and wonders y would anyone love her... y cant she see how much im in love with her and that i have been for like over a fucking year??!!! it seriously breaks my heart. i mean i try 2 not think about her but its sooo hard esp when she just randomly comes up and sits so close 2 me or flashes me that smile and then i just feel like melting all over the floor.... and now that i know that she feels that way its gonna be even harder b/c i just want 2 run up 2 her n kiss her let her know shes loved. i kinda wish i never found out what her user name was cuz now i feel like such a stalker.