yesterday we had that family therapy... i started bawling. god that was soooo long it was hell... they were telling her how i dont talk 2 them, that i can joke around and talk about lighthearted stuff, but as soon as it gets serious or personal i close myself off and put up a wall. mom was saying how im receptive 2 her moods n can tell when somethings wrong n when i ask she tells me, but when im moody n she asks y or trys 2 talk 2 me i never say anything. i mean i want 2 sometimes but theres certain things i really cant tell her or ill get punished, or she wont approve, or wont let me hang out w/ ppl. most the things that upset me r in that category. she was asking me if i wanted 2 be able 2 talk to them, i said to mom yes and they were like u both want 2 talk so y dont u? so i started thinking about all this shit n i was thinking if i told her certain things about me she wouldnt love me but of course i wasnt gonna say that so i just started crying. then they all sit n stare at me 4 like ever asking me stupid q's like y am i crying and what am i thinking about now thats making me so upset n wat do i think mom and dad are feeling right now and i was like i dont wanna talk right now!! at the end she was saying even tho shes leaving she thinks all 3 of us should have more family therapy cuz theres very high emotions running between all of us and she thinx we could all benifit from it. i was like hell no!!!! ive had enuf. anyway were leaving in a couple minutes 2 go c the other doctor 2 talk about the medical side of all this bullshit!!! its all bullshit! i swear i think dad wants 2 send me away. cuz hes the one who keeps talking about it the doctors never bring it up unless hes starting 2 freak me out and so i ask them about it. and the doc said she wouldnt cuz all my tests were fine. hes such a fucking ass.