mr anderson wont explain 2 me wat im supposed 2 do for this shit and i dont get it so y bother. im just gonna write. i was punished all weekend.... never had such a long weekend in my life. all i did was come home 2 late on friday nite w/o calling 2 tell them n she grounds me. pathetic. so i spent saturday n sunday lying on my floor staring at the ceiling, till that got boring so i went outside 4 a change of scenery n laid under the tree burning incense n staring at the sky. grrrrr. friday was cool tho, i went 2 that crew thing at kaylas w/ maria. im gonna join, it was alotta fun! except the part where my jacket got caught on joshes earring n ripped it... i felt so bad. but 2day we passed each other in the hall n i looked at him n he just smiled n kinda started 2 laugh at me so i guess hes not mad. when i asked about his ear he said it was ok, he actually stopped thinking about it. at kaylas, after we came inside from playing all the games n stuff me n maria were sitting on the couch flipping thru this dungeons n dragons book cuz they were all playing it n we didnt know how. anyway... we were sitting real close n laughing (i love making her laugh!) n i fell in love all over agian. she has beautiful fingers... i never realized hands could be so fascinating. i was getting all these thrills. goddess how can she do this 2 me? sigh..... for the bad news tho- todays courtneys last day at school. lunch was kinda depressing.... maria was tryna take pix of us but courtney wouldnt let her saying she was really sad, so i gave her this sideways hug cuz we were walking down the hall n shes like dont guys im gonna cry, and were like, dont cry! if u cry, well cry. she turned around n walked in2 the bathroom. we both followed her n she came out of a stall w/ a tissue n teary eyes... i cant stand this!! i started crying last nite in my room. i was thinking how she wont be here anymore n just fell apart. i mean, we say im gonna meet her up in florida next year when i move back 2 the states n do all this shit, but really? how am i gonna get there? were probly moving 2 pensylvania. i cant drive. i really hope so tho. and then when i do move from here, ill be leaving maria. will we all ever be 2gether agian? the trio is gonna be like... broken.