::Bad side of things:: just got out the bathtub..had 2 relax and think about sum shyt...god..i was so effin happy..and than...bam i talk 2 him and i get all upset again..i dont know why i still let the things he says upset me..i guess in a way i still love him...but at the same time..i try so hard 2 convince myself that i dont...that i can do better..and that i dont need him...i wish i could just 4get all we had...i wish...ya...john....damn...him... ::good side of things:: anyway..i still like that one person lots and lots..i mean..i really think im falling for him...hard...<3...everytime i think about him i cant help but smile..i wish i could make him as happy as he makes me...i wish i could tell him all the feelings i have 4 him.....fooey.... im actually really hoping 4 no school 2morrow..i dunno..maybe jamie or the tom will come see me..that will make me...very happy! i miss them :-( I hope the tom feels better! I wish jamie didnt go 2 bed at 9 i wanted 2 speak with her....o well i guess... mom and john didnt go 2night..damn snow...that makes me sad..i wanted *alone* time... lucia's sister maria is 5 months pregnant :-D thats kick ass...im going 2 her baby shower in 2 weeks..wahoo..i think my sister might b going 2...who knows? lala...bored im out <3 Jennifer <3<3<3<3