here we go again....depression has sunk in again...what a shock? it was goign 2 happen sooner or later...its so crazy..like an hour ago i was writing in here writing about how happy i was and shit...and now...i feel like crying...why do i have 2 be like this? i want to leave this hell hole..leave forever and never come back..forget everything that once was...forget the pain all you dick heads caused me...forget the pain i caused myself..... Im sick of pretending like everything is ok..ive been doing it for so long...im not quit sure if i could show my true feelings..i come custome to faking it... why cant i find that one special guy that i can tell all my deepest darkest secrets to...cuddle late at night with..and wake up every morning to him telling me how beauful i am..and how much he loves me...i guess in a way...i found that guy...but he's not mine..and im sure he never will be.... I long to feel your touch.... i dont think i will return 2 school 2morrow...give them another day 2 say more stories abot where im at..and if im alive or not..i like 2 let people wonder... Well i think im going 2 go lay down..i think i need a good cry.....im out.. Jennifer<3