In the name of love

Feeling: belittled
Because you kill me.. ..You know you do you kill me well.
*9 till hell ends *75 till effing heaven today was alright. we gave tracy's pen a face and arms and an afro. it was pretty hilarious. and I had a mental breakdown with the tape.. the roll of tape wasnt in the dispenser and I raised my hand and told mrs host and I was like laughing my ass off for no reason at all, I thought I was gonna die haha, and when I told her, mrs host looked so sad for me it was funny haha shes like "alright calm down, I'll work on it.." and she said it in this like horribly sympathetic voice. it was glorious I suck at life. everybody was singing hollaback girl at lunch again. it was some good times. carley forgot how to spell bananas haha she was like "THIS SHIT IS BANANAS. B-O-I-..a..a..a..?" it was fuckin hilarious. and we were saying all these completely random letters and then trying to pronounce it haha it was pretty awesome.. and brandi and I ended up somehow seeing each other every period except 10th. well I saw her during 9th but she didnt see me. it was crazy.. I had to make up the science test but it was fucking easy.. I didnt hafta take the civics test though cause I didnt get the review sheet.. so I took down mr heins posters in the back of the room and when class ended I still had like 3 left to take down and I was like BEGGING him to let me take them down haha I was like "it'll take like 2 minutes, seriously. I wont bother anybody!" but he said no haha so when he left the room I ran into the back and took em all down like really really quick haha but I needed a pass to 4th period anyway which luckily he gave me and as he was writing out the pass hes like "..after I told you no?" and Im like "uhm, yeah.. but it only took me 2 minutes like I said! and I worked dilligently! and I didnt bother anybody!" haha he was actually pretty pissed..:) we did our puppet show today.. I was right, we were supposed to do it yesterday.. but mrs hotchkiss let us do it today cause I wasnt there yesterday.. it was the stupidest thing ever but all the little kids positively loved it.. Im sure they wont remember a single second of it tomorrow haha.. and there was this one little boy in the class who rides my bus. and you know how little kids get excited whenever they know somebody older than them.. especially when none of their friends know them too.. and so he was telling his teacher that he knows me and waving at me and smiling and stuff.. I waved back, just to make him happy. Im embarassed to say, it was actually kinda cute=X:[ aw well. that was my day. boring and miserable and pathetic. just like me love.
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my timer just hit the 666 mark!! *mwahahahahahaha! this just in: Im going to jersey tomorrow! thats where brand new came from. and a whole bunch of other totally awesome bands that I am absolutely in love with and even though its the hell hole of the US its basically hott guy central. and thats what I need right now. a good hott guy that I can use abuse and lose!:) and then he'll never see me again! **its the perfect plan** yayyyyy for jersey!! love.
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Yeah, I would like that.

Thanx
Amber
Oh and MCR rocks.

Amber
Yeah, I ask my friend to do it so I could take my puppy outside but she didn't do it right lol.

Amber
hey ur site is alsom .. thanks for the comment ..catchya later
[Anonymous]
Yep, tell me about it lol.

Amber
wow what happened with you? just so i can see if its slightly like whats goin on with me...lol ALL GUYS ARE LOZERS. ick. well i ingnored my lozer today and i have to work with him tomarrow and sunday...soo owell lol this should b a fun weekend. laterzz...

---Cassie*
[Anonymous]
omg thats terrible. i cant believe he would do that to u. are u sure u still wanna work that out with someone that would do something like that to you though? wait...why am i saying this when i am trying to do the same with kyle? did u no the story of me and him? prolly. ok well w/b

---Cassie*
[Anonymous]
well what happeneed was he told my mom i was pretty cause me my mom my moms fiance and him all work together yeahh so he told my mom that before i even worked there and so i dunno i didnt think nething of it cause i ddint know him but then when i started working with him i started to like him and i found out he liked me too but that he wasnt allowed to date so a few weeks ago we were walking home after work and he said that he wanted to...
[Anonymous]
...ask me out but that he wasnt allowed to date so he was worried that his parents would find out and wed have to break up so i was like well i cant tell u what to do since im not the one that would have to hide nething so that was the end of it and then this last weekend my friend amy who also works there was talking to him and she was like if u break her heart ill kill u but do u like her? and he was like yeahh i really do and she was like...
[Anonymous]
...well then if u like her u should kiss her goodnight or hold her hand or something when u walk home and he was like but im not allowed to date and she was like yeah but she would at least know u were there for her andhe was like yeahh true so when we were walking home he was like did amy tell u what we talked bout and of course i said no so i could see what he had to say a bout it and he told me and then he goes but i didnt wanna cause...
[Anonymous]
...i didnt want to lead u on or have u get the wrong idea...so as hes saying this he has his arms around me and goes but see im not leading u on right now by having my arms around u cause its cause ur cold and we wouldnt want u to get a cold right and i looked at like with a "are u fucking kidding me" look and go "well THANKS for lookin out for me.." and pushed his hands away from me and we havent spoken since. he usually hugs me goodbye but...
[Anonymous]
...he didnt. so now i dont know what to think about him hes litteraly the most confusing guy ive EVER met and tomarrow..actually today (saturday) im gonna tell him exactly how i feel and idc nemore if i cry or yell or whatever happens if we never speak again. ihave to get it out cause im not gonna go home not knowing what hes thinking this weekend like i do every other weekend. sorry this was so long but its a complicated story...
[Anonymous]
awesome diary. Awesome backgroung. MCR kicks mother fucking ass.
eew. holler back girl!
lol

yeah if i had a car and money i'd go to a show everyday
[Anonymous]
please take that out im sure i can tell people by myself
[Anonymous]