if anything else were my native tongue It's vacation. I want to die. It is boring here. There is homework to dread. And television. That is all. And this laptop. Thank invention for laptops. It may be the only mental stimulation. People are not good for that anymore. People are good for crying. And anger. And frustation. That is all. It snowed last night. Its cold outside. And white. Stupid bird at the window. Fly south for the winter. Fly anywhere. Fly for any reason. Just go. Take your little ditty with you. Step. Step. Step. Step. Turn. Step. Step. Step. Step. Turn. P A C I N G. P A C I N G. P A C I N G. P A C I N G. STOP. sit. stare. stare. gaze. jerk. glance back. stare. stare.