It's like everyone thinks I'm this pure little bird up in my nest. And that I want to be there (here). I don't. "What do you know about yourself if you've never been in a fight?" I'm sure that's not the exact quote, but I think Tyler Durden has it right. Not about fighting, necessarily, just life in general. But I never seem to have the chance to prove myself. No Edward Norton to punch me in the ear. Le sigh.

golly. i haven't been on here in forever. a few years? i don't know. but. life is good (not that anyone even checks this, but it's just fun to go on here again). anyway. so i had real drama in my life for the first time ever. not anything major, but still. but it's done and over with. because i prayed. yeah. prayer works. it's crazy. and uh, yeah. oh, i'm currently writing a book. it's all over the place though, so i couldn't post it on here. anyway. i'm off to go watch green street hooligans. it's kind of boring, but i told my sister i would watch it if she read the perks of being a wallflower (i'm kind of spreading that book around like a disease).

well heLLO! i haven't been on this in forever. goodness. well ummm i haven't had drama really. except i finally realized that guys aren't COMPLETELY clueless. gosh i have nothing to put on this. but it feels good to have a drama-less life. indeed. OH! christmas is coming up! i'm so excited because i dont really care that much about what i'm gonna get...because i got really good presents for everyone. mmhm. it's not right. i know. and i realized that i actually like hellogoodbye. gasp. i really need to re-do my sit diary... edit//: ahh...much better

school started. it was as good as school can be for someone that doesn't like school. i just dont like my journalism class. it's filled with a bunch of kids who LIKE school. eh. but i get to write an article about degrassi. so i guess it's ok. and i went to six flags yesterday!!! i went on superman. my goodness. i thought i was gonna die. but it was much fun. horribly spifftastic weekend. i'm gonna go watch the great mouse detective.

a week at my grandparents' house. oy. the computer kind of spazzed half the time so i didn't spend the entire time on the computer like last summer. i got the mae cd as you can tell. so so so good. it's creepy. i actually like all the songs! gasp! only a week and a day until school starts. ew. only 2 years left of that hell. aaaaaaaand...hm. my sit diary's getting so boring. i can never think of anything to put here. eh. ta ta i guess (i'll add more stuff to here when i can actually think of what i was trying to think of) the soundtrack of my lifeCreated by x-wifey and taken 302 times on Bzoink1. opening credits:catcher in the light-ayumi hamasaki2. waking up:sugar we're goin down-fall out boy3. average day:grand theft autumn-fall out boy4. first date:the everglow-mae5. falling in love:the story so far-new found glory6. fight scene:tension-nural7. breaking up:goodnight, goodnight-hot hot heat8. seeing other people:scars-papa roach9. getting back together:best of me-starting line10. secret love:the ocean-mae11. driving:basket case-green day12. deep thought:if all else fails-matchbook romance13. flashback:dressed to kill-new found glory14. partying:dance, dance-fall out boy15. happy dance:the district sleeps alone tonight-postal service16. long night alone:winding road-bonnie somerville17. death scene:butterflies and hurricanes-muse18. closing credits:the perfect ending-straylight runCreate a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to Bzoink

this band's great. i had WAY too much fun playing 007 goldeneye on nintendo 64. my goodness. first i played multiplayer with my brother. and i was xenia cuz she's the coolest character!! and i seemed to let the character get to me...i was going crazy! it was pretty funny. and then i played one player. i had two automatic guns at the same time. so. much. fun. and i FINALLY heard fall out boy's song "sugar we're goin' down." so so good. i'm gonna marry that song. seriously.

i got the new rufio cd. it sucks. i'm gonna sell it to my friend so i can get the mae cd instead. ow. i'm cramping. ummm well i won two rounds at the knowlwood tournament. i beat the 7th seed in three sets. which is good because i wasn't seeded. and then i played the 2nd seed and lost horribly... and i ate a bunch of minty floss....dont worry, i didn't swallow it!

my sister got a nose ring...ew...she said "it's like a zit. but sparklely!" riiight... i finally saw the movie sunset boulevard (did i even spell that right?). it was soo weird. "i AM big! it's the pictures that got small." well. nothing really exciting has happened. nothing to write that would be too entertaining. except...the new rufio cd is out!! and sadly i have no money...

have you ever had one of those days where you feel creepily good-looking for some odd reason and want to do little poses in front of every mirror you pass? i did. don't worry, i didn't pose. and then i was at tilly's and some lady thought i worked there which was a huge compliment. and now i have some weird habit of chewing paper....

warped tour was so awesome. i saw matchbook romance, starting line, fall out boy, armor for sleep, no use for a name, silverstein, gatsby's american dream, thrice, mxpx, and i met the singer from stutterfly!! but rufio wasn't there :( :( and i went to disneyland. i got to talk to the evil queen from snow white. she's so cool! i told her that i want her job. and i got mad at merlin because he wouldn't let me be the king! and the cowboys at frontierland were hot! fun fun and yesterday i got really mad about SOMEthing and threw my favorite cd on the ground and ripped up this fairy tale book i have into little pieces. good times good times... and chris evans (the human torch) is a sexy beast :} fantastic four looks like a horrible movie but i'm gonna see it anyway!...well...i'll rent it...

i played 12 hours of tennis last week. hm. warped tour is sunday!! hurrah! my best friend is moving to oklahoma on thursday. today i played tennis for 3 hours, barbequed (sp??) with my dad, walked my fat dog, and my grandparents, aunt, and 2 cousins (6 and 8) are over. and i'm feeling very stupid/terrible about something. can't say what it is...but..yeah. ------------------------------------ it was just another manic monday. i wish it was sunday. cuz that's my funday. my i dont have to run day. it was just another manic monday.

an update?! GASP! my hair actually looks good. and the lady who did my hair didn't get black dye all over my face like last time. summer's going good. shocking i know. i'm actually being a tad social. dun dun duuuuun. yes, the world IS going crazy... i'm going to warped tour, after 2 years of not getting to. yesssssss (not in the napoleon sort of way) and i got otter pops :}

my sit diary's spiffed up now. as you can see i'm addicted to 80's covers. is that healthy you ask? why yes it is. i'm getting my hair cut tomorrow. i'm scared. i kind of like it how it is. hm. well i'll update on the hair issue tomorrow.

^^^that's such a horribly great song, wow. and i love this cd so much! i got punk goes 80's. it's so great. rufio does a perfect cover of "dont you forget about me." i never realized how sad beauty and the beast is. and i wouldn't watch the end when he turned into the nasty pretty boy prince. ew. he shouldv'e stayed as the beast. anyway. i'm off. ta ta...

woah! i haven't added an entry in a long time. oy.... well. um...good news! i dont really have any drama anyway. except a tad bit of sarah stuff. it's really funny actually; she blocked me. silly sarah, trix are for rabbits...oh wait...she just unblocked me....scratch that then. hahahaha she's not talking to me now. *so horribly amused* anyway. oh yeah, today is the first day of summer! no stupid school with stupid teachers and stupid "peers" and stupid homework! and i saw star wars episode three. bad acting. overdone special effects. overdone yoda. all in all...bad movie. LONG LIVE STAR WARS EPISODES 4 5 AND 6!!!

dear sarah, fine. i give up. -alicia

dear sarah, i just think that what you said to me was really *bleep*ed up. i mean, you're my best friend. and you're acting like i dont even know you. do you even know yourself? you're say you dont know if you're pretending when you're happy or not. so you DONT know yourself. so you dont really have a right to tell me that i dont understand you. because i do. i want you to get help because you're such a great friend. what kind of a friend would i be if i didn't want you to get help and wanted you to stay depressed or whatever else is going on. i'm scared that you might turn out like me. i really dont want that. so can you PLEASE try and see where i'm coming from? thanks ---alicia

dear sarah (beaverums), hm. well. i have no idea what to say. i feel like someone just punched me in the stomach. that came out of nowhere. it's like you dont appreciate anything i've done...at all. you KNOW that i've helped you a lot. you even broke up with brian THREE times! did i ever get mad at you? ever? no i didn't. i helped you out when you were feeling bad about it. i tried my hardest. i always have. that's what's bugging me. you dont seem to think i did any of that. like i'm just some random girl at your school that you say hi to at track meets but dont really know. that's what it feels like. really. i dont know how many times i have to say this but, i've always been there for you, and i'm still here. and what you said to me really hurt. you dont seem to think i'm that important anymore. you keep thinking of what life would be like if you never met me. what about the fun times? you didn't like hanging out with me? remember "tennis." "*high five and spaz*" ":B" (the beaver face and all the other types of beavers there were). that doesn't bring back happy memories? none at all? <3,_____alicia (diggums)

wow. that changed my whole day. i feel like i'm in a soap opera. goodness...it's a tad funny though. ---------------------------------- And never getting help doesn't make you brave, Not listening to reason doesn't mean that you have faith, You're just cutting off your nose to spite your face.

lots of new stuff. i can't type it though..so my sit diary's just boring huh? yes indeed. well i got the postal service, straylight run, and plumb cd's. and i got a death cab for cutie shirt which is aaawesome!! ...i didn't want it to rain today