ok so yeah i havent updated in a while, and most people have probably stoped reading this, oh well, im back (at least for now) so here's a quick update of what's been goin on with me lately: NJC ended (*tear*), and i came home, worked at kamp all summer long which was fun, albo and i broke up, which is sad and we both still like each other, we just live 8 hours away from each other, so that sucks, mhmm i started mcgill, its amazing im having sooo much fun. i love it. im livin in res and its uber fun. ive met a bunch of different people and ive got a pretty sweet schedule, so thats really good news. mhmm ok so class is starting so im gonna peace and yeah i know u guys have my email and msn so keep in touch.

so yeah, i just finished my last independent travel of the year. actually not even, that was last weekend when i went to San Remo, Italy, this weekend was the last trip of the year, it was with school for a biking weekend in provence, france. we stayed in Avignon (like the french folk song) and biked sat and sunday, and had friday afternoon and monday morning to ourselves. it was a nice relaxing weekend. Fuck i just realised my roommates dont even get home till tomorrow morning, what was i thinking. fuckkkkk. ok so yeah back to was i was saying (go team ADD), we had a nice relaxing weekend, and ive realised that there's only a couple days of school left for me...as in 3...fuckkk. oh yeah i bought some birkenstocks this weekend..they're pretty nifty.. mhmm so yeah ive got nothing to do tonight, nobody's back from Copenhagen yet and those who are here i just spent the weekend with... aint it funny how time just slips away..? Its kinda depressing how because we are actually leaving back to canada in under 2 weeks. thats pretty tough...all things considered. well guys write back, what's up with all of u?

so yeah yesterday was our school's 50th anniversary. Since i'm the VP i got to go to a press conference and i was intereviewed for the newspaper and radio, it was exiting. i got a glass of wine with it after...11:30am it begun...That night we had a whole bunch of speeches and presenatations which started at 3:30pm and went until 10:30 so everyone was planning to go get licked before hand, good time to start drinkin eh. so yeah we all also had to dress up, so i got to wear my suit all day long, that was nifty. mhmm so after lunch we went and grabbed a couple beers then i had a half-hour philosophy class which was pretty pointless and then after that the festivities started. We sat through an hour and a half of speeches which was ok then afterwards there was the "vin d'honneur" offered by the city, which simply meant everyone got free wine and ppl got licked and then we left for dinner where they kept serving more wine, crappy wine, but free wine. so pretty much the whole school got drunk at dinner, i was pretty much drunk from lunch till bed yesterday and it was amazing. oh yeah i also got into a fight last night, it was special. one of my roomates got taken outside by these otehr guys and the next thing that's happening is i'm on top of one guy with my forearm on his neck and some guy is kicking me in the ribs while my other roomate is kicking the shit outta 3 guys (he's a 240lbs rugby player -- dont mess) and my other roomate, the one who got pulled out (weighing in at like 150lbs) gets punched with a belt!! who does that!! AND they hit one of the girls!! thats just fucking rude. anywho the cops came, and i have 3 months to press charges if i want, yummm. oh yeah and my right side of my face has ballooned out. oh and the worst part is my suit got blood on it, my white shirt is completly covered in blood, its ruined...we'll see what bleech can do. anywho peace out

ok so ive realised that i only ever really update when i feel extreme emotion. fuck thats definatly not a healthy thing, id better start updating more often... ok so big news, things are going well and ill leave it at that, cuz i dont want ppl from neuch reading this. ok why dont i just start making my diary private and leaving chris, hardial and erica as the only ppl who can read it. ill leave this up for a while to see if ppl have any objections and if they do then ill leave it public, but if not ill make it private so Neuchers cant read it anymore by chance.

i was called a boyfriend today...its a beautiful day...

ok so yeah im back from habitat for humanity in Szarvas, Hungary. We spent a week building a house for 4 families and it felt good. there was some tension between me and scott (the only 2 guys) and the rest of the girls..wtv. ok so yeah ive decided from that last entry that i'm not gonna plan things (the way i want it always to be) and live in the moment, therefore i have come to the conclusion that bout this girl i keep hooking up with (and who i've talked to)....wellll i like her :$

ok so ive realised something right about now. The girl that i'm currently hooking up with on the weekends, well a relationship with her could never work for the sole fact that we have never discussed it or joked around about it afterwards. in fact we have NEVER talked about it sober, we just ignore it and pretend like it never happened. and even though things are not awkward, it just makes things even MORE AWKWARD...gah. i realised all this while i was looking at a pic of this other girl who i realised that had she not left, i might have ended up dating her because she's so chill and we have great conversations and DO talk about when we did hook up. its awesome. FUCK why do ppl only realise this stuff when its way too late. man like this otehr girl's gone but she's coming back to visit for a week, does that mean i might have another shot at it? but at what? she's only here for a week, there's not much of a chance of a relationship developing from that. fuck man how do i never see this kinda stuff. its these chill girls who can joke around about hooking up afterwards who are the cool ones to date, not the ones who wont talk about it when they're not drunk! man this is shit. well at least i know for the next time i randomly hook up with a girl, talk about it, get it into the open...and fast, but some girls i'd guess dont like that. man this is bullshit, the girl who i like is 6000km away in canada, and the girl who i'm hooking up with, wont acknowledge it when we're not drunk. man ive gotta figure something out.

well i dont think anyone noticed that i had my 100th entry two entries ago, not even me...i just realised now when i saw "xcx" which is like 100-10+10 which is just plain stupid so i changed it so this is a belated congratulations to myself...wow im cool.

so i'm back home after spending a week in st-petersburg russia. i was there for Model UN and i actually won best delegate in my conference (6 conferences, 700 delegates total) so that's pretty nifty. but to follow erica's lead, here's an insight into my (lack of a) love life. so the nite before i left for st-pete's, i hooked up with this girl from my school on st-pattie's day for quite a while and it was a lot of fun and good times, but i didnt talk to anyone about it before leaving the next morning at 5am so when i came back yesterday (ie a week later) i have her roommate asking me if we (the initial girl and i) hooked up last weekend. and i'm just like there's no way she can play the "i was too drunk to remember" card, and that kinda pissed me off cuz i dont know if its true or not, but like i dont think this is the first time she's done this to a guy. so yeah i hooked up with her last nite again and it was while dancing for like an hour and it was like the end of the night so i'm thinking she cant really forget that...right? wtv even if she "forgot" everyone saw it so it'd just be really uncool to do something like that...but would she? opinions anyone?

ive always wanted to get other ppl's opinions on things, but i always ended up getting chris and hardial's, so i've started writting a book. it'll be magnificient, im excited. It's not a story or anything, its more sociological, psychological and philosophical. I decided that since i really want to be serious about it, i'm using it as my final philosophy project too so that way i HAVE to work on it. It's an analysis of the teenage society. talks bout how teenagers are the beginning to (social) life, and that everything before that was just prepping us for the real world, real life. I've only got a couple pages done right now, but ive got an outline out and its etching to come outta my noggin. it'll be splendid. i just hope i finish it while i can still think as a teenager, if it isnt already too late.

i havent watched tv in a long time, its nice after a long weekend. Go Canada Go Ok so this weekend i went to Torino, Italy...here's what happened. Friday night: - Curling, Canada lost on the last stone to Finland --> 8-7. But at the actual event I had front row seats with like 6 friends for 20euros each, sweet deal. we were all decked out in Canada gear, i even saw a guy with a Quebec flag lol. Saturday: - 7 girls got caught the night before, they went back to neuchatel, they leave tomorrow morning for canada for 2 weeks (according to the school). very pissed cuz they're good friends of mine :'( - 3:30 Canada vs Switzerland. we got there 45 min early, bought some cool gear, got us 6 guys together and spelt out CANADA on our chests, good time. then we went down and got WAYNE GRETZKY'S signature!!!!!! yeah awesome time. so we lost the game, had a bunch of beer (did u know bud is the official olympic beer?) and mhmm then left. after that me and mark made our way over to canada house and were VERY disapointed with it. - 7:00 Finland vs Czech Rep. this time it wasnt the whole school, just mark, me, syd and anne-marie. Saku Koivu, captain of the MTL Canadians, is also captain for team Finland (SUOMI!) and so yeah we cheered for them and they wont 4-2. we then ran back to the bus to not be late, sweet day Sunday: - Lazy day, woke up at like 11:30 (got to bed at 2:30 nite before) and watched some olympics in our hotel, then left for neuch, we got home at 7:15 and MISSED our 70$ Deep Purple concert which was in Zurich at 7, but tahts 2hrs from neuch so that really sucked, fucking unorganized school. goddammit anywho yeah so thats bout it, amazing weekend overall, i definatly wanna volunteer at the 2010 olympics in BC, take care guys, sleep tight.

Is anybody out there? Is anybody home?

Ok so its 10 to 1 here and i just got up...hmm good sleep yes yes. My room's a complete mess, for some reason there area tons of crums in my bed, i must have had major munchies last nite, as per the norm there's a bunch of food next to my bed, im glad i pass out before i eat it all. Today is a do stuff day. I think what I would ideally like to do is finish all my rediculous amounts of physics hmwk, maybe go down into town for a coffee or something, and just chill. What will prob happen will be in bout 10 min I'll be called down for lunch, then greg'll come up to my room and we mite just watch a movie then ill take a nap and the day will just be a waste. Oh well, try not to plan and you'll never be disapointed.

ok so i've accepted it and am happy now because i have accepted and look forward to moving in with the Andrews...now the only problem was convincing the school and it still will be a problem. oh well. ok so im in philosophy class right now and we're talking about the universe expanding and its rather interesting...so ill talk to u guys later. Have a nice weekend.

Valentines is always such a depressing time for us single people. It should be shot.

ok so im back home, and yes home is now officially Neuchatel, Switzerland. ok i got back from zurich today, spent last nite and yesterday there with the mom, meh ok times, nothing exiting to report. ok so still moving backwards, i went skiing in ZERMATT this week. Look it up, ull find it under AMAZING or GODLIKE! anywho it was a great time, i met the 2nd semester kids, nice group. mhmmm oh yeah my hair's back to normal color, my cast is off, all is back to normal to kick off the new semester. My courses now include: Physics, Law, Philosophy and AP Calc. meh nothing more to report, great amazing week. Props to Chelsea, Midori & Jahnson for being sick ppl and leaving us now, I hope to see you guys one day again.

Any idea what powder till the hips feels like...just ask, i can tell you... :)

How can two people go from being best friends to not even speaking within a time frame of 4 months without any huge fights or anything happening... It almost seems like it was fake the whole time... was I living in a dream world?

a weird thing about me is this: i know who i am and i know what i do, and they arent the same thing. It's hard to explain, but the fact is that like the person i am and the person i want to be are two very different people. In some ways i wish i was like greg with his coolness and just like smoothness, in others i wish i was like matt cuz he just gets along with everyone and even if he doesnt say much, ppl still really like him. I am though like Zack in the way that i have a need for ppl to accept me, but he's the opposite because he actually does shit and just seems like an idiot for it. I've realised that ive become girl crazy lately because i know that i wont be getting any from any respectable girls. There are probably some that i could hook up with, but a man has to have standards right? Right. Anywho its weird because when i think back on it, i know the kind of girls that ive been with, and i know the kind i want to be with and they are very different not in personality, but in looks. There really hasnt been any girls here that i've communicated clearly with on an intellectual level, well maybe one...but she doesnt talk to me anymore, ive got other theories on that. Greg and i started watching this movie today, its called Waking Life, and its a trippy but fuckign amazing movive. i only saw the first 30 min and i was already blown away by its deepness. it's an independent film and very philosophical. I like it, it's prepping me for next semester. When i look back on some things, i know how fucking annoying i am at time, and ive really got to stop over analysing things. i miss that sane opinion that wasnt mine. i miss having a best friend around to not care about shit with. i miss my dogwalkings and calling friends to chitchat i miss not always having to worry about trying to get girls because i go to school with the only ones who i could date. i miss dating. i miss NOT FUCKING CARING WHAT PEOPLE THINK. Oh Charles, what has become of you?

And sheperds shall we be For thee, My Lord, for thee. Power hath descended forth from Thy hand Our feet may swiftly carry out Thy commands. So we shall flow a river forth to Thee And teeming a soul shall it ever be. In Nomeni Patri Et Fili Spiritus Sancti *bang* [Sleep tight Papa Joe] Now cracks a noble heart.-Good night, sweet prince, And flights of angels sing thee to thy rest!