dear sarah, i just think that what you said to me was really *bleep*ed up. i mean, you're my best friend. and you're acting like i dont even know you. do you even know yourself? you're say you dont know if you're pretending when you're happy or not. so you DONT know yourself. so you dont really have a right to tell me that i dont understand you. because i do. i want you to get help because you're such a great friend. what kind of a friend would i be if i didn't want you to get help and wanted you to stay depressed or whatever else is going on. i'm scared that you might turn out like me. i really dont want that. so can you PLEASE try and see where i'm coming from? thanks ---alicia