today has got to be one of the worst days of my life... first something really really scary happened. i can't say what. but it was the scariest moment of my life........i've never been that scared ever...ohhh my gosh....i started shaking... and then! i called the guy and he said he couldn't go cuz he had to go to some party thing. it just added on to how horrible i felt. i just feel so drained...