happy new year. happy? is it? is it really gonna be a happy year? or is it gonna be the same as this year, or mabye worse? no one knows but i'm not in the mood to find out. i'm pretty sure it's the 2nd one. not really excited at all about 2005. actually i'm pretty upset about it. i dont want to go through another year. it sucks being pesamistic and oh-so emo. i still can't sleep. the earliest i get to sleep is 2 30. and that's rare. so if anyone has advice? i want sleeping pills, but i hIIIghly doubt my mom would get them for me. so i guess i'm stuck being a vampire for now. i'll be 16 in 6 days.