ok so..about 3 night ago now i slept over my little cutiesss because the next morning we had to go get ryan from the airport in albany and we had to wake up wicked early. so that night i find out something because im just wicked smart like that and its kinda scary how well i know bryan. so i figured i would confront him about it, so i did and come to find out i was right. hmm imagine that. sooo he came home cuz he was out at icehouse and kept calling me to come downstairs to talk cuz i was sleeping with blair. so finally after freakin 15 mins of calling me and annoying me i went down there so we could talk. basicly i freaked out, he felt bad, said he was sorry, i freaked out some more, he got upset, i calmed down, he spills his heart? so that turned into a 2 hour convo..of stuff that i reallly didnt need to hear. ive done so good the last couple months on my own without him and then he does that. as much as i dont want him too, i really cant wait till he leaves. he stresses me out to the maximum even though he doesnt mean to, he always manages in his own way. hopefully in college he'll do alot of soulsearching and change his ways ---"someday" ok sooo on a different note--- me and cutie had to wake up at like 745 that next morning to get ready to go and get ryan. so i ended up getting a whole 3 hours sleep that night, which might i add was just wonderful?not. ryans flight came into albany at like 12ish, and it takes a good 2 hours to get up there, which was the reason we had to leave so early. but that road trip up was fun. me pats and cutie. haha i lovee them, there honestly almost like my second family. ok so anywho we got to the airport and it was complete madness there. we always have the best luck with airports i swear! the parking lot was completely full so we drove around for a good 5 mins before we actually find a parking spot. so when we finally did, this bitch comes outta nowhere and takes it! hah so blair flicked her off, of course! and the girl got pissed and w.e. sooo we finally get a spot, get ryan, and came back home. ooh ryan that cutie, let me tell you hes something. soo after we got home me jess and mirduhh went to the speidie fest...which brings me to my last 2 days! ---sooo we hung out there all night. it was fun, we saw/ met alot of people including my love for the last 3 summers, jeremy. he works there and i met him 3 summers ago and no lie, hes the hottest kid ive ever seen in my life. so every year we kinda hang out and stuff, but the last 2 summers ive boyfriends, first one i was with dom..and the others with bryan. so that was always kinda hard cuz he always wanted to hang out and i couldntt. so yea i have his number now and he has mine anddd he wants to hang out so maybe thats a possibility? :) so hmm...we watched these black guys do this awesome like acrobat show thing..it was pretty cool. and me jess and mirduh got a picture with one of the guys 8-)...so we just kinda walked around and hung out all night, me jess mirduh and my cuzzz vince. oh speaking of vincee..haaa oh man, WHAT UP JESSSS ;) ok enough of that for now..anywhoooooo we went home and slept at mirduhs that night. we didnt end up doing anything like we planned. i passed out around 12 considering i had 3 hours of sleep the night before. so mirduh and jess woke me up and we were up for a little, then we just went to bed. soon to be woken back up at 330 cuz chad called, and at 4 when bryan decided to call. lol those dumb boys. k sooo..yesterday i was with my dad for most of the day. jess and mirduh went early to the speidie fest, and they ended up meeting aaron carterrrr and jared cambell cuz my uncle is security there, so he hooked them up. i wasnt there yet so i missed all that. so when i got there we just hung out and walked around. we left at 9 so jess could bring her car back, then we went to go see blair and everyone there. thennnn went to jess'..went to my house...watched forrest gump with ryan and blair...bryan called, talked to him for a while...thennnn went to sleep! and holy shit im tired of typing..but yes thats been my last few days, craziness i tell ya, but hey what can ya do? so i guess this will teach me to write more often so i dont have to do this anymore. hah alright im gone.