So.. I haven't made a post in like what..? a long ass time.. wow.. ok so heres an update for all that are interested.. since I know a LOT of people read this now... ya.. I've become a myspace whore if anything :X Alright, so I quit my job at Wendy's back in May, it was May 18th.. I'm glad I'm done with Wendys... because it was a fun job I guess, gave me some experience.. and well, I know what I DON'T want to do with my life now :D so ya.. happy joy joy! anyways... I've graduated high school! yay!! its really weird to think that after summer ends.. I'm not going back to high school.. 12 years of this really make you acustom to this whole *school* thing... Even now I dunno what to think of it, Kinda sad, kinda happy.. I don't want to spend my whole life in school I guess.. but it was something to do, something I could just do... Something all my friends where doing, it was a place I could go to see all my friends.. A common place where everyone was and where I could make fun of the popular kids. Now I've got nothing of that nature, I mean I honestly loved sleeping in class, cuz sleeping at home isn't all that great, no desk to put your head on.. nobody watching you and asking themselves "why is he sleeping?" It really sucks... I also am going to miss sluffing.. because lets face it, ITS FUN! Theres nothing better then missing a class and not giving a damn! With this whole "job" thing you can't exactly "sluff with your friends" you get "fired" which isn't good.. then you don't have money and can't live... so I guess it could be an adrenaline rush to "Sluf work" but the outcome could be well... not so fun? ya... I'm moving to Ogden on the 20th of July, and well probably like the 14th through the 22nd I'm going to be gradually moving.. then I get to go take some math classes and stuff to get my GPA up so I can hopefully go to the school of my dreams... But on a liter note.. I really need some female attention in my life, like I dunno.. just being single isn't all that great after oh.. the first 2 years of being single? but hey.. how would I know right? since I've only been single for like.. almost 2 and a half years.. I'm going to bed.. Goodnight :) Oh ya! and everyone should check out Elliott Smith.. he kicks ass.. look him up on Wikipedia even!

Well its been awhile I guess.... I haven't been on here for a long ass time... my friends list got erased I see... oh well who needs them?

73 hours of Wendy's in the past 2 weeks.. got a paycheck for $353.73 Damn government took 85 bucks of my hard earned cash... I better get a hella good tax return on this... That puts my bank total at $1,085.73 meaning I've got enough to get this Honda I want... w00t. So I've spent an hour trying to get a new top banner but all my ideas don't depicted my personality as well as I would of hoped they would so I'm stuck with the same old one for now. I haven't been very active on here lately so I've noticed that I haven't gotten as many page views as I used to... anyways, hope everyone has a great Saturday! Leave me a comment and I will give you a hug or something.. (Sexual favors may be applicable, read promo Terms and Conditions for more information)

I always find it intersting how teens go through drama's of "I don't want to lose him/her" Well when I'm in a relationship I feel the same exact way.. Its like I'm in fear of loosing that person, when in reality I know its going to happen because the success rate of teens getting married is pretty low unless they are sexually active and happen to have a kid, then thoughs relationships usually end in a devorce because they can't stand each other and they finally realize that they just wanted each other for lustful purposes. When I'm single like I have been for a year give or take afew months, I can't understand how I even got a girlfriend in the first place and I mean.. I dunno I don't think I'm really even ready for a steady relationship, I like hanging out with girls as long as they aren't like Taryn.. Geez she just freakin talks on her phone when we are hanging out.. if it can even be called that. I'm still trying to get ahold of Megan.. I don't even know her, she came through the drive-thru at Wendy's the other day asking for me cuz she had gotten my number a few weeks earlyer when I was on break, well I have her number now and we where supposed to hang out yesterday but that never happend because I called her 3 times then Cliff my manager called me and asked if I could come in to work from 5 to 8 which isn't a long shift at all so I said I would. It was my day off.. but I didn't mind, I had nothing better to do. I was at work for an hour and a half and he told me I could go home because we wheren't as busy as he had expected. I got to take all the Wendy's food that I wanted to for free because I came in on my day off, it was great. I got a Triple with an extra patty and a Biggy fry, Biggy drinkg, Fruit cup, Medium frosty, 5 piece nugget. it was grand, I finished half of the one pound burger.. and I couldn't eat my nuggets, they where old by the time I got to them. I talked to Kari cuz she had a break when I got off, she thinks I have a crush on ther cusion and her best friend, but I told her I thought that all three of them where hott, and she said "ya right! thats why you wanted Esters number and asked if she was single" well this is true, but I only did it because Kari seems so hard to get, she is always hanging around with guys.. Hick guys at that.. with big trucks n shit. Needless to say we are going to go on a date some time soon.

The brightness of the stars overwhelmed the night’s sky. The air was so tense that night, the only thing keeping me outside was her in my arms. Father always told me she was an angel. The shingles of the roof retained the suns heat well in to the night wale the blanket spread over us helped to keep the heat trapped between us. She always had something to tell me, something to make me laugh, something to make me smile, we would gaze at the stars and name them as if they where our own, because to us they where our own. Tonight I’m on that same roof, but this time I’m up here solo, the shingles feel so cold… As if someone had used that roof to melt ice. The blanket that was once so comforting felt like a fishnet that any fish could escape. The clouds where so thick that I couldn’t see the stars, but even if I could see them, I couldn’t name them without her…

this is not an entry of optimisum... I love how you always point out the bad things I do, I love how you never notice when I do something right, the little things that should matter you never seem to see or care about. You wonder why I tell you to go away, you wonder why I hate it when you try to talk to me, its interesting, because I know you will always go to your room and think about what I said to you, then 15 minutes later you will come back with a bitchy attitude and yell at me for not cleaning my room, for always *using* you for your car, for using you for money, your my fucking parent, what do you expect? Do you ever remember when I'm nice to you, when I talk to you and I'm nice to you... You seem to think I'm someone who died 3 years ago, you *don't know me* "Your not the Scott I know" well guess what, I'm the Scott I know, I'm the person who I'm, if you don't like it then fine, you've only gotta put up with me until I'm 18, then I'm outta here.. Seriously mom, I can't stand the way you talk to me, the way you make me feel and the pressure you put on an already stressed teenager, I would of thought you would know, you take pills for stress, you think I don't have stress too? am I your fucking stress relief? you bitch at me for all this shit.. it pisses me off.. then you bitch at me, its interesting how you want me to go to church with you, the interesting part is you always bitch at me for being late, you always say "your never late to work" well guess what mom, I get paid to go to work.. I DON'T get paid to go to church, "you get paid spiritually Scott" well guess what, the way you force church down my throat, you think that a *spirit* would even touch me with a 10ft stick? I just got home from work, my mother asked me 5 questions, I told her to leave me alone after answering 3, she didn't ofcourse so I told her to leave me alone in a more seriouse voice. She left and 10 minutes later she's down here bitching at me for being a jerk to her.. Mom, I just got home from work, I need some time to myself, I need to releax, fuck your bedtimes.. I'm 17, fucking eh.. I can get up on time.. If I need to do something I will, freakin eh.. I hate this, I hate how my mom sets rules she knows I will break, I hate how she is always a bitch to me, how she makes me spend time with my family.. Why do I care so little about my family? well why do children hate peas? Remember when your mom made you eat all your peas before you could leave the table.. My mom makes me spend time with my family, ya think that goes over well? I dislike my family, I hate California, I hate leaving home.. I like to keep my schedule free unless its spending time with people of my choice. I love my friends... I love certain family memebers.. but in general I hate spending time with everyone at once... Work is going well I suppose, I really need a lovelife.. but nobodies got everything eh? well I'm going to go sleep now so my mom doesn't come bitch some more at me..

Grass overgrowing the name, the only visitor is the man who mows the lawn, ocassionally he reads the name, runs his fingers over the inscribed letters, the words "My God, Mercy Me" 1988 - 2060, Nobody knows him anymore, nobody can remember his tail, nobody to know his stories, the Love that he shared on such numerous occasions.. All lost. Never to be found again by any soul on this earth. Game Over. --- I haven't seen myself as a very religious person recently.. but I know that I believe in god and I haven't prayed for months now.. I prayed lastnight and decided it to be a good thing, praying doesn't commit me to a church, its just speaking to my creator, why would I want to not speak to my creator? Well, since I stayed up on here until 2 in the morning last night I woke up at 7:30, thats when my bus comes... ya, so I missed the bus, got out of the house by 8:07, the city bus comes at 8:10, missed it.. went up the street to the bus that I *though* came at 8:15, guess not.. but it came around at 8:35, better then never I guess, I was freezing my ass off though :s it was great though! I got to school as 2nd hour started, got marked as a sluff in 1st hours since I wasn't there.. oh well, I could care less :) The rest of the school day was Average I guess.. I got home and I've been sitting on my ass all night, talking to people, flirting with freshman that go to my school.. its been great. Why am I attracted to girls 2 years younger then me? Maybe its because they actually pay attention to me.. Weird.. Although I've seen a few Seniors who I wouldn't mind dating.. Lots of girls I wouldn't mind dating.. Pepsi gives me a stomachache and burp a lot.. I wish I would have known this *before* I drank 24oz of it..

If you read this You must post a memory of me. It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad. Just so long as it happened. Then post this to your journal, and see what people remember about you ...

Damnit people!!! "Sorry, only (insert username here)'s friends may read this diary." WHY?! grrrr fuck you all, I want to read your diaries.. but Noooooooo... I've got $95 bucks in my pocket, and for once.. nothing to spend it on. Weird.. Lots of things that are weird have been going on recently.. I've found someone who I believe to be equaly as awesome as Teresa was, since Teresa was the last person I went out with its kinda hard to think of someone else I care more about.. Maybe Craig or Mike.. but not in a loving way like I cared for Teresa.. But anyways, this girl, I don't know if I have a chance with her and I'm not going to mention her name since nobody reading this would know her anyways, and I don't know her lastname.. But ya.. she seems like an awesome person.. She straight forward too, which is cool. I had today off.. Sat home on my ass all day.. wow, it was boring! tonight my 80gig hardrive decided to croak on me.. its my *main* drive.. well.. aside from my C drive.. my 80gig holds all my pictures, xbox modding stuff, various other important documents such as a book I'm writting.. ya.. so I was kinda pissed when it broke.. so I looked in to it, found out that my IDE controller was just being retarded.. and just a side note, never have both your drives set to Cable Select (CS) it works.. but it confuses the IDE Controller on rare occasion, such as my case. My mom went to Vegas for the week.. I'm home with my brother until Thursday when she gets back. I told her to bring me back a condom from a hooker but she said no.. so I told her to get me a poker chip or something niffty like that, hopefully she gets me something cool... today I setup my paypal account, so I can actually buy stuff on eBay now without having to mail them a check, w00t, speaking of that.. my Matrix Cellphone cover and Charger for just $1.98 is on its way to my door! w00t.... ya.. good deals, gotta love eBay. The thing I love about my mom being gone is the fact that I'm still up and she would have me in bed by now.. its great being able to stay up when you want to. I modded *Another* XBOX yesterday.. lets count how many that is.. 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9 I think.. chargeing between $10 bucks and $60 bucks.. I've made a bit of money with this :) well.. this entry has probably made you all bored... I'm sorry, but my life just isn't very eventful.. not very dramatic like thoughs people who go to parties, get high, make out with someone elses boyfriend then tell there friends they are going to have so and so kick there ass because of it.. I would choose my life over a drama infested life anyday. But thats just my personal opinion :P Comment away! weeeeeeeeee or not.. ya know.. your choice :P

This place I call home has become a hell, I want out everyday, somedays less then others, but I feel so wasted here.. I feel useless like an old toy, one that just sits and collects dust as the child has moved on to something new. From this veiw I can tell whats happening in others lives, but my own life lacks all the features that would allow a life to be great, Will work fill this gap? Its doubtful.. But its worth a try, atleast it will get me out of this house. Living a life of dreams has its ups and downs... The up's are great, but the downs hurt, you can feel yourself falling, sometimes you know your falling, other times the ground just hits you... I want to live in between the lines of Romantic and Realist, I need to be the median, I haven't found out how, but right now I know my life isn't in proportion to what I want. My family is serisouly pissing me off, today Sean took the modem so I have no cable internet. I'm with out the net right now, thus why I'm writting this. I got pissed about it, but instead of screaming at Sean I just left. I caught the LTD and went to the Transit Center, then I went to Papa Johns and picked up a job application, I went to Burger King to get some food and was going to get a job application there but they where out of applications. The whole reason Sean unplugged the net was because I told him I had a young mens event tonight, (church junk) and I didn't want to go, he called my mom and told her this, she told him it was my choice, I told him to stop being a fucking asshole, so he unplugged the modem and took it. Thats when I left. Anyways, after I went to Burger King I walked to HomeDepo and bought a Butane Tourch for soldering Jewlery, my mom called me on my cell and wanted to know where I was, I told her "thats a secret" at this point I didn't know if I wanted to go home, I knew I didn't but if I was going to go home, it would be easyer to get a ride from my mother then walking, even though it was less then a mile to walk home, probably a half of a mile.. But it was cold and I was running out of Ideas, plus I wanted to play with my new tourch.. So my mother came and got me, I opened my tourch, played with it.. Its kinda niffty, just need some metal to solder, so I came down here to check if the net was back on so I could order some metal, and it was still unplugged, I then told my brother I needed the net to order medal and he told me that mother said to keep it off, when in reality my mom didn't say anything about that to me.. I guess we will see when she gets home right? School has been going well, I have all A's and one B-, I was suprised, the B- was a C yesterday.. maybe its gone back down, but I can't check since I don't have the net.. Grrr... I've got strong feelings of lust, kissing withdrawls, cuddleing withdrawls.. the usual. Watch me get with miss perfect and fuck it all up with my lustful addictions. Although I'm sure I could tame them with one cuddleing and kissing setion. Pathetic me I know.. but I will laugh at you all too, when you experience the same fucking thing! HAHA doot... Great, my dad got me in a freaking Sign Launguage EFY setion.... now I get to go to Idaho... Damnit, I don't even want to go now, but he invested freakin 400 bucks in to it... GRRRR

I just thought I would update my diary, nothing has been happening worth noteing lately.. Although I've been wonder what my life would be like if I did this, or if I didn't do that.. Kinda an intersting thing to think about. I watched a movie called The Virgin Suicides, it was rather interesting, its on my favrites list.. Donnie Darko The Butterfly Effect Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind Garden State The Virgin Suicides Bio-Dome Wakeing Life SAW Thats just a few.. We had a four day weekend, I feel as if I've wasted it all away.. I saw Katherine at the basketball game on Friday, she looked happy so things must be going good for her. I left the game and hung out with Krista for awhile, she's pretty cool. Fun to be around and talk to. I personally can't see myself dating her.. but you never really know.. maybe.. but I wouldn't count on it. Ever since 5th grade I've had this odd crush on Nicole, that was 6 years ago.. weird to think about it that way.. She's just fun to talk to, I could never see myself seriously dating her, maybe going to a dance or something, but we are just friends who can talk to each other about most subjects, and its great because she's mormon and the things I tell her about myself don't tromitize her like they do most mormon girls around here.. but whatever. I have these nice little withdrawls from kissing, they kinda suck.. totally based on lust and I know it. I haven't hit rock bottom yet though, still won't kiss just anyone, they gotta atleast have some what of an interesting personality, someone I could see myself dating basically.. flirting is fun.... I need a job.... ya.. so right now my life is being wasted away, I go to school, come home, sit, sleep, school, with occational eatting. I need something to do..

The downfall of the human race will be Pessimism, look on the news, do you ever see anything Optimistic on the news? Sure you hear about the man who killed 12 people at his school, and the man who robbed a bank. Then you hear about a Typhoon that killed thousands and left others helpless with nothing. On ocassion you hear about little johnny helping out the community with his eagel project. But in reality the news is all about war, death, violence and blowing things way out of perportion. I think that the news has taken it way to far about the Typhoon in Tsunami.. the Media, The continues coverage... I can't stand it! Just let the wound start the healing process... Why are humans drawn to these sort of horrific scenes?! Why to I hear people talking about these things in the streets, in resturants, in walmart! People.. do we not have anything better to talk about? We just make horrible things something we talk about on a daily basis? I dislike how the News runs.. I rarely ever watch televison for that reason.. Anyways, on a lighter note.. I got some good stuff for christmas, I got a Drill, then I bought myself a MP3 CD Player, and I got a Cellphone today.. now I really should start thinking about getting a job eh? Well untill I feel like updating this again.. Cheers.

And I wonder what life would have been like, but in some ways I'm glad I will never know. Take the Highroad. Schools been going alright, I wish I could get a fucking job... Life seems so bland right now... sad. Making some awesome shit in jewlery, other then that time just seems to pass. I wonder if people even read this anymore... I talked to Craig today about various things, he knows that when Teresa gets back they will most likely date, Teresa seems to think diffrent.. Its interesting viewing things from this angle and knowing the outcome.... Like any good friend I gave him fair warning but he seems to think its worth it... people change whatever goes.

Well a new trimester has started, I have some pretty easy classes, the only real classes I have this Tri are American Lit. and Us History. This is my Schedule, American Lit., Computer Tech, US History, Lunch, Seminary, Jewlery 2. Hard isn't it? Next Tri will be even easyer. Novell Certification 1st and 2nd hour, Then Seminary 3rd. I have no 4th or 5th hour 3rd Tri.. So I will probably end up taking Jewlery 2 again and some random class 4th hour... The new tardy Policy is in effect.. its really lame. You aren't allowed ANY Tardies what so ever.. After you have 5 Tardies you *get* to take a Restoration class, basically ASD and its 2 bucks(to pay for the teacher) I find it kinda lame.. also, if you have 10 excused abscenses you've gotta take the class too. for every unexcused abscenese you have you've gotta take 1 restoration class. so if you sluff a day you have 5 Restoration classes to take which is 10 bucks and 5 days of ASD basically.. Its pretty lame. There are some hotties in my new classes. A girl in my US History class who is a Senior.. although she has a boyfriend and has for a few years.. hm.. thats about it I guess.. Kajsa is in my Jewlery 2 class again! she's awesome! although she also has a boyfriend. but she's fun to talk to! My Computer Tech class is going to be my blogging class I think.. although they have Keyloggers on all the pc's at school.. Maybe they don't, but seriously why wouldn't they? it makes sense for them to.. they are the Schools computers.. they have the right to log anything that anyone types on them.. so if you use school computers for email/blogging/etc.. it would be a good Idea to change your passwords, or just setup an account specifically for school. Thats what I've done.. Today my US History teacher asked us to list things we liked, hobbies etc.. she asked if we could meet anyone, who would it be and why. I put Kevin Mitnick, like mostly everyone in the class she didn't know who is was, so she asked, I replied by telling her that Kevin Mitnick was a Major Hacker in the 90's, I've never seen someone that uncomfortable before.. it was funny! She simply said "creepy" and moved on to the next person without letting me finish my paper. :D yes, it was great. My hoody probably helped too.. it says "Social Engineering Specialist Because there is no patch for human stupidity" The great part is most people have no clue what a Social Engineer is. They just laugh at the Human Stupidity part. Sad how un-educated people can be with computers.. but enough of my geeky talk, I'm sure it bores most of you.. People can always remember the Present better then the past, I find it interesting how Highschool relationships work. I find it kinda sad how some people spend there whole Highschool with the same person.. Humans need to experience diffrent people. I've seen numerous Highschool relationships where people have given up all there friends for a guy or a girl. Is that right? what happens when they break up? someone is left friendless.. For someone to leave all there friends for someone else is interesting.. is it love or boredum? I know I wouldn't leave my bestfriend Craig for Boredum.. but when I was with Teresa I would have Broken all Ties with Craig for Love with Teresa.. Interesting.. I'm still learning things, I will always be.. Always trying to make sense of life and the stuff it throws at you. Teresa, I think after you and Caelb break up and you get a new boyfriend you will probably feel that you like them more then you liked Caelb. Its always easyer to like someone in the present more then someone you liked in the past. I don't know if you will like me when you come back, if you do then awesome, if not then life goes on right? We will still be friends atleast. So this Senior chick.. not the one in my US History class, a diffrent one, she's pretty hot.. yes, I just felt like adding this in.. Xander is back, I weighed him today, he's 72 pounds. Sean is on his way back to logan, I can't wait to see my older brother again! He's gotta be my favrite brother, I've talked to him many nights about my life, he's probably the only person in my family that totally knows me. He accepts me for who I'm and not what he wants me to be. Sure my oldest brother Brad Loves me.. but he can't seem to accept me, he is always asking me if I've progressed in the Church, always wanting me to take the Sacrament and such.. He see's happyness in that. I just wish he could leave me be and accept me like Sean has.. Well my mother is telling me its bedtime so I best be off to bed. WTF?!? 3 *Friend Only* journals in a row?! Stupid friends only journal people... I WANNA READ ABOUT YOUR LIVES!! *Stalker Smile* Ok ok.. now I'm really off to bed...

Feeling: Could care less I learn new things about myself everyday, Today I've learned one reason why I like computers so much. I'm a perfectionist when it comes to things I can like. When I'm drawing something I want, or want to make I try to make it perfect, when I'm on my computer I try to get things to make it look *just so* when it comes to girls I'm very picky about who I would go out with. I won't go out with just anyone... Unless hormons are involved.. stupid horoms.. beyond that I'm pretty picky. I haven't written in this diary for awhile, things have changed a lot, the trimester in school is over, I'm Single and I dunno what to think about that.. I still need a job, Mike got the job I wanted.. can't say I tried to steal it from him. I need money, so I need a job.. yes. My mother *was* going to turn off the internet, but guess what, I'm still on eh? yup. I've been getting new stuff for my Xbox, its whats been keeping me sain.. I've gotten 4 new games in the last week.. yes, I know... and I've modded 2 Xbox's in the past 2 weeks.. I got a haircut.. lets see.. what else. um... Xander is getting bigger. I dropped Spanish 1B, since I almost failed Spanish 1A.. ya, I need something to do during the day. something to keep me happy and occupied, cuz this computer shit just seems to get rather boring after awhile ya know? especially when you get on and talk to people about nothing.. you just talk because they are there.. its almost pointless. it brings fails hopes and fails assumptions. Thats why I've been appearing offline a lot lately.. I have nothing to talk to anyone in preticular about.. so why even show up online? I don't know what I want at this point and I don't intend to find out until I can move out of my mothers house.. none of the girls at school seem to be the type of girl I like, and the one girl I thought was perfect for me just doesn't seem the same anymore... So at this point Perfection in my life is still $null.. but I'm happy, atleast I think I'm.. why wouldn't I be happy? I have nothing to be unhappy about.. seeing how relationships are nice and all.. but breaking up is a bitch. So is it really worth it? depends I guess. Well until the next time I feel like writting something in this... thing. I will leave you with this nice little thought I found on a forum the other day.. its rather funny.. but kinda sick, but funny all the more, and I could care less what everyone else thinks.. since this is indeed my journal :P Here it is. "So I was fucking this guy in the ass lastnight.. And he turned around and kissed me... WHAT A FAG!" Great isn't it? gotta love selfincriminating sayings... --------------------- JTHM makes me want to kill people.. violence is so great.. everyone should be introduced to it.. In a totally non-violent way ofcourse.... yes.. thats it.. or something.. Hm.. Lust withdrawls.. aka Make out withdrawls/cuddle withdrawls.. Since its impossible to call these things Love.. Sure Love is a mixture of all emotions, but I've seen many times where the Lust factor is exploited in high school relationships.. I don't find anything wrong with that though.. just find it Ironic. Craig, you've always been right.. I'm wondering how long it will take Katherine to say something about this to me... Starting.... Now! (7:14) About 15 minutes... With help though!!

Well, I've been thinking about a lot of things today. I talked to Teresa for awhile on msn, I talked to Katherine too. I talked to some people from EFY from lastyear and the year before, one of which had a crush on me, funny funny... I feel really old.. I'm 16.7... 137 more days and I'm 17, then 365 more days and I'm 18, then I'm outta here. weird.. 502 days until I'm 18.. maybe I should start a countdown.. Maybe it will last longer that way.. but is that a good thing? I guess time will tell. I've been overwelmed with the amount of comments I'm getting on these new journals :) I mean.. sure I haven't written in 4 days.. but 11 comments weeeee! although 6 of them where a comment conversation.. but still! I'm happy :) I added the "Scott's deviantART" button at the top of my page today so people can see me, and the pictures I take.. I need to take more pictures, I have my camera with me all the time, but I never pull it out and start taking random pictures, I should be! Halo 2 comes out in 2 hours.. I've already beaten it.. had it for a month, the ending sucked.. can't wait for the poor reviews!! The multiplayer was about a 9, although the campaign mod was like.. a 5.5, and thats being nice.. it totally sets bungie up for a halo 3, which they haven't even started to produce yet to my knowledge.. they want to "try something diffrent" so don't be expecting a Halo 3 on Xbox.. it will most likely be on Xbox 2. ya.. I installed FreeBSD 5.3 on my POS 150mhz 40mb ram pc on sunday, it runs beautifuly other then Mozilla Firefox. so I use Links, a text based web browser. its pretty simple to us, I kinda like it, its fast and effective. Xander met on of his puppies, I actually have a video of it.. its only 238kb's but the quality is lacking.. I made it small though so anybody could see it if they *really* wanted to since this puppy is really cute! Xander and Puppy you can see all the puppies Here I guess thats about it for now :) enjoy the video and pictures! and have a good evening everyone :)

Well today I've been cleaning all day.. I can't believe its already Thursday.. almost Friday now.. I've started taking pictures of everything with my digital camera.. Xander felt neglected all day today, he was stuck in the kitchen as we cleaned since lots of people I don't know are going to be in my house tomorrow and spend the night there.. Today as I cleaned my room I found lots of notes, lots of memories, lots of things that I forgot I even had. I threw away a lot of things I usually wouldn't have. But I thought of it this way, I'm going to be moving out when I turn 18, the more I throw out now, the less I've gotta pack around. So I threw out things I found I hadn't used in the past 6 months, I allowed myself 3 shoe boxes of random junk that I wanted to keep, but besides that it all got thrown out. Right now I feel deprived of Love, I know my mother loves me.. but thats not the love I need.. I need someone who I can hang out with, someone who loves to cuddle up beside me and look at the stars, someone to share my life with, someone who will listen to me and someone who I can be myself around. I need support, Love would be nice too.. Being dependant sucks.. I think its wearing off though.. Although its always nice to have someone to cuddle with, even if it is a big slobbery dog.. But I still love Xander, he's my favrite dog of all time, and he's extreamly cute :)

Life is going well, I posted a link from my old diary to this one.. Mike got his car back, we went to Walmart tonight to see if there where any prospects.. There where lots, but all with guys. Mike got a cellphone.. My brother chewed him out about it though hehehe.. He got a at&t phone, my brother called him and told him how much better Verizon phones where and told him he could set him up with a better plan for less. Funny stuff. I setup a DeviantART today.. you can access it at http://hdy.deviantart.com its just a bunch of random pictures I've taken and posted.. I like afew of them. Its a great community :) My wrist hurts from playing xbox.. Mike gave me some ram chips for my POS computer.. I dropped my Bridgerland class. Sorry people on msn, I haven't been talking much lately, I've been playing Halo with my brother online.. I will make an effort to try and talk more on msn.. The car I want is now 1,900 instead of 2,500 so I must get a job so I can afford it.. Hope its still around when I get enough money for my dad to help me pay for it. Xander has been a bum the past two weeks, he's been inside due to rain and bad weather.. He's made himself quite comfortable I believe.. I think he thinks he's a human.. He's a cute dog :) I will miss him when he's gone.. but I won't miss his slobbers, or his farts.. man they stink. Although he probably won't be leaving to very far away, my brother is getting a job in Utah, possibly Logan, or Layton.. so Xander won't be to far away. I talked to Matt, A boy I knew from 5th and 6th grade, he moved away and now he's back. We had a pretty good conversation. Well, its 12:55 and my mother told me to go the bed at 11:30.. so I better go to sleep. Sorry for the lack of updates.. I've been busy with my not so busy life.

New Diary, New Shit, New Pictures.. Nobody knows about this one yet... good.