Feeling: Could care less I learn new things about myself everyday, Today I've learned one reason why I like computers so much. I'm a perfectionist when it comes to things I can like. When I'm drawing something I want, or want to make I try to make it perfect, when I'm on my computer I try to get things to make it look *just so* when it comes to girls I'm very picky about who I would go out with. I won't go out with just anyone... Unless hormons are involved.. stupid horoms.. beyond that I'm pretty picky. I haven't written in this diary for awhile, things have changed a lot, the trimester in school is over, I'm Single and I dunno what to think about that.. I still need a job, Mike got the job I wanted.. can't say I tried to steal it from him. I need money, so I need a job.. yes. My mother *was* going to turn off the internet, but guess what, I'm still on eh? yup. I've been getting new stuff for my Xbox, its whats been keeping me sain.. I've gotten 4 new games in the last week.. yes, I know... and I've modded 2 Xbox's in the past 2 weeks.. I got a haircut.. lets see.. what else. um... Xander is getting bigger. I dropped Spanish 1B, since I almost failed Spanish 1A.. ya, I need something to do during the day. something to keep me happy and occupied, cuz this computer shit just seems to get rather boring after awhile ya know? especially when you get on and talk to people about nothing.. you just talk because they are there.. its almost pointless. it brings fails hopes and fails assumptions. Thats why I've been appearing offline a lot lately.. I have nothing to talk to anyone in preticular about.. so why even show up online? I don't know what I want at this point and I don't intend to find out until I can move out of my mothers house.. none of the girls at school seem to be the type of girl I like, and the one girl I thought was perfect for me just doesn't seem the same anymore... So at this point Perfection in my life is still $null.. but I'm happy, atleast I think I'm.. why wouldn't I be happy? I have nothing to be unhappy about.. seeing how relationships are nice and all.. but breaking up is a bitch. So is it really worth it? depends I guess. Well until the next time I feel like writting something in this... thing. I will leave you with this nice little thought I found on a forum the other day.. its rather funny.. but kinda sick, but funny all the more, and I could care less what everyone else thinks.. since this is indeed my journal :P Here it is. "So I was fucking this guy in the ass lastnight.. And he turned around and kissed me... WHAT A FAG!" Great isn't it? gotta love selfincriminating sayings... --------------------- JTHM makes me want to kill people.. violence is so great.. everyone should be introduced to it.. In a totally non-violent way ofcourse.... yes.. thats it.. or something.. Hm.. Lust withdrawls.. aka Make out withdrawls/cuddle withdrawls.. Since its impossible to call these things Love.. Sure Love is a mixture of all emotions, but I've seen many times where the Lust factor is exploited in high school relationships.. I don't find anything wrong with that though.. just find it Ironic. Craig, you've always been right.. I'm wondering how long it will take Katherine to say something about this to me... Starting.... Now! (7:14) About 15 minutes... With help though!!