Well today I've been cleaning all day.. I can't believe its already Thursday.. almost Friday now.. I've started taking pictures of everything with my digital camera.. Xander felt neglected all day today, he was stuck in the kitchen as we cleaned since lots of people I don't know are going to be in my house tomorrow and spend the night there.. Today as I cleaned my room I found lots of notes, lots of memories, lots of things that I forgot I even had. I threw away a lot of things I usually wouldn't have. But I thought of it this way, I'm going to be moving out when I turn 18, the more I throw out now, the less I've gotta pack around. So I threw out things I found I hadn't used in the past 6 months, I allowed myself 3 shoe boxes of random junk that I wanted to keep, but besides that it all got thrown out. Right now I feel deprived of Love, I know my mother loves me.. but thats not the love I need.. I need someone who I can hang out with, someone who loves to cuddle up beside me and look at the stars, someone to share my life with, someone who will listen to me and someone who I can be myself around. I need support, Love would be nice too.. Being dependant sucks.. I think its wearing off though.. Although its always nice to have someone to cuddle with, even if it is a big slobbery dog.. But I still love Xander, he's my favrite dog of all time, and he's extreamly cute :)