it's been a wonderful night and i really think school should just end tomorrow, yes on saturday, and then i can live every night driving in the dark with my arm out the window and dancing at the fairgrounds and sharing stories with all these different people i'm becoming closer to. i love the thought of how crazy of a grandmother i'm gonna be when i have kids and they have kids. did i forget my contemporary dancing with sunshine, one of the few people i favour most in my life and who i couldn't live without? i miss buying sobe everyday and eating as many chocolate-covered pretzels my tum can handle. such a weird day for my moods. it's like a rollercoaster that only goes up but somehow never goes down. sitting in a desk for seven hours is not what my life should revolve around anymore. i hate dealing with it and there really isn't a whole lot i hate these days. why can't she look in the mirror and say to herself, "i'm better than i think and i don't give myself the credit i deserve?" why can't she take the good with the bad and see the glass half full and just look at her life and just think about all the good things she has and not let go of that. i'm trying. i'm trying for her and i try so hard.