i had a really great time seeing everyone last night and i don't think i've laughed so much in weeks maybe months. those things will be gone soon and i think i really need to stop bitching about everything and just use the time i have now to do things with the people who still care i know there are more than i've wanted to believe. it's now seven and i was up by five and i feel good for some reason. the sun is still rising and i've got work in a few hours but i'm still happy. my mother has been blasting christmas music on the oldies station all weekend and i secretly enjoy it more than she knows. i can't wait for thanksgiving dinner with the fam.