Tomarrow is 420 haha lol. My friends arent allowed out because their parents know what it means so i am going to go hang out with my boyfriend. He called me last night at about 10:30 to tell me to come over because he was drunk with mike perry, joel, trevor lamphere, and casey house. Fuck that im not going anywhere lol. My head hurts. My uncle was supposed to pick me and my aunt up because i left my cell phone up at his house in Ny but we think he went up there with his girlfriend and never told us wich i will beat the living shit out of him if he did! Im tired i didnt go to bed tilllike 3 in the morning because my robert kept calling me i could have killed him haha lol. I miss al of my friends and new york and its getting on my nerves i want to see them so bad. My aunt is sitting her yelling at me about stupid stuff and i wanna slap her. She had a big mouth when i was trying to watch tv so now that im listening to music she decides to get on the phone like a fucking idiot and i omg im going to kill her! She has a broken foot so she uses taht for an excuse on everything and its really annoying!Austin is being a butt and yellig at me. But im going to go because i dont fell like writing any more and i gotta go find something to do. Its now 420!

Im so bored...! We might go shopping again today....! I hope so i want clothes lol...! We are probally going tup to all of those outlet mall thingys idk.......! I dont really payattention that well... :( lol...! I guess i should start doing that tho....! Omg only 4 more days untill school......! I have no clue what i am going to wear b/c we havent gone shopping yet i wanna like freak lol..........! Im going to talk to my mimi she will take me to get what i want lol....! My step-mom got pissed at her yesterday b/c my step-mom had gotting me binder at like her work && they were all white && my mimi's like well how is she going to be able to tell wich is for wich class unless she takes them all out && looks at them...? My step-moms like well o well.........! So while my mom took a shower my mimi took me to staples and got me these really pretty colored ones..! I love being spoiled lmao.......! Well i gotta go think we r leaving soon...! Still gotta blowdry//straighten my hair.......! O ya im prolly getting my hair cut today...............! Peace <3

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH............! IM SO TIRED ITS LIKE 6:02 && I HAVENT BEEN TO SLEEP YET......! well im going to go get some coffee with my poppa now that im up o ya i got a digital camera last night from my mimi (i think rachel was more excited than me lmao) well write more l8r.......! Peace <3 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ L8r that day lol its 5:52 Well i jusT WENT supply shopping for school...! I got so much stuff it's crazy...! wal-mart def. sux && they dont have anything there so we went to staples haha...! I wish i could've gone to the youth group party but owell boohoo lol jp......! alabama crimson tide v.s hawaii baby....! omg cant wait 1 more hour............! football season is goign to be crazy this year without brody not being able to play b/c he totally destroyed his ankle last season...! it sux so bad......! well im going to go somemore to drink && hang out with the family since they r up 4 a while......! peace.........!

Well.........! I dont really have much 2 say today b/c its only like 10..! But my mimi && poppa are coming up today so i have to clean the house :( im babysitting now && it sux so bad.......! Ahh.. Im so sick of sitting here but im happy that my mimi && poppa are coming up.....! I cnat wait untill youth group its going to be so much fun....! Nikki's going but i hope that kylie doesnt haha lol...! I get along with her shes just so loud tho.......! But i guess i should get going && find something to eat then start cleaning the house.......! Peace <3 ya'll

AHHHHHHHHHHH.................! Orentation was fun everyone has changed so m uch over the summer....! My schedule deff. sucks....! I have one block with rachel && its art(the school must be pretty dumb 2 put me and rachel in an art class together for 80 mins..! ya know how many times we got in trouble last year for messing around with the pain)(i liked to paint my hand lol)...! Omgsh i dont want school 2 come b/c im so nervous but then again im like yay..! U get to see everyone...! But im like 10 lockers away from smelly evil ricky.......! && RIGHT NEXT TO JUSTINS LIL SISTER........! ahhh! what did i do to deserve this haha lol prolly everything but o well...! CANT WAIT TO BE A SOPHMORE......!

Omg we have orentation........! I cant wait.............................! Havent seen so many ppl all summer.........! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

"Gone Forever" Don't know what's going on Don't know what went wrong Feels like a hundred years I Still can't believe you're gone So I'll stay up all night With these bloodshot eyes While these walls surround me with the story of our life I feel so much better Now that you're gone forever I tell myself that I don't miss you at all I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now That you're gone forever Now things are coming clear And I don't need you here And in this world around me I'm glad you disappeared So I'll stay out all night Get drunk and fuck and fight Until the morning comes I'll Forget about our life I feel so much better Now that you're gone forever I tell myself that I don't miss you at all I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now That you're gone forever First time you screamed at me I should have made you leave I should have known it could be so much better I hope you're missing me I hope I've made you see That I'm gone forever And now it's coming clear That I don't need you here And in this world around me I'm glad you disappeared I feel so much better Now that you're gone forever I tell myself that I don't miss you at all I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now That you're gone forever And now you're gone forever And now you're gone forever AHHH..........! what is going on with my emotions....! I miss him when im not around anybody but when im around like scott or abby or rachel or anybody im not like i guess lonely.....! :( what the hell is going on.........!

Omg im so bored..! Well last night was fun me & abby hung out with scott burnham && norman..! They kept slapping are asses with pretty much whatever they found && there hands..! My but hurts..! Norman beat me with a stick..! My arm hurts to b/c scott made me give him like 15 piggy back rides..! Im like omg scott how old are you..? so he went to norman..! If you ask me (i think they are a lil 2 happy with each other) lol..! Well about justin me && him are over doesnt bother me ( he didnt seem thrilled with me when i called him about his scrimmage last night..! he prolly would have been happier if i didnt call him from scott's phone && if scott wasnt in the background talking about my ass && playing with my shoes)(prolly didnt sound to good with me sitting there laughing my ass off screaming stop scott im trying to talk..?) o well..! O i talked to scott && the girl he made out with at the fair was fat && ugly..! Omg that amuses the fuck out of me..! Well im waiting for the lovely rachel rainbow to call or abby then i will prolly be headed over there to hang out with burnham again..! well peace (see all u ppl at orentation tom....! Its called K.A.R.M.A..! u wait what goes around comes around bytch.....!

ok we r over again..! Boo hoo..! NOT...........!

Im kinda bummed but then again im so happy....! I didnt make volleyball b/c rachel killed my arm...! && Me && justin are back together to i dont even care about volleyball right now...! I might go over to rachels so i can murder her...! I cant wait 2 see justin..! I miss hime so bad! Well im going to go but RACHEL YOU WILL DIE...! no joke even tho im sore as hell i will kill you....! Luv ya..! M+J <3

OMG I GET UNGROUNDED TOM..! im so happy...! Im getting up at 4:30 to go running with abby then im coming home && im going to crash then get back up at like 7:20 to get ready for practice at 7:50 then i have volleyball practice untill 10:30 then going to the mall with mom..! && then im going to come home && sleep like no other...! Then im goign to wake up && help my mom with the kids while she packs b/c she has to go to mass. 4 her job then im going to eat..then shower then bed..! Then get back up at 7:20 egt ready 4 practice go to practice then come home shower && then go to bed then wake up && go to a friends house..! tom. i might just come home after practice shower then go to a friends house && just be tired all day not exactly sure tho..! But im going to bed bb in a few days if not tom..! <3 him still She tells herself just hold on alittle bit longer<3 because Cinderella didn't find her prince until [the end] <3 micah

I know how bad i wanted them to break up....!so why do i feel so bad..? so confused the only thin im sure of, is the fact that i would do anything to get him back....! i <3 him so much if only he knew how bad i <3 him...! Idk how he would react he would prolly say im immature or somethin idk..! All i know is I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING LITERALLY ANYTHING..! just to have him once again...! i wouldnt screw up like last time b/c now i finally realized how bad i screwed up...! god i want him back so bad........! i LOVE justin so much..........! I wish he knew how bad i want to be back in his arms...! i miss the icing fights haha :(

THEY BROKE UP THEY BROKE UP THEY BROKE UP THEY BROKE UP THEY BROKE UP THEY BROKE UP THEY BROKE UP THEY BROKE UP THEY BRTHEY BROKE UP THEY BROKE UP THEY BROKE UP THEY BROKE UP THEY BROKE UP THEY BROKE UP THEY BROKE UP THEY BROKE UP THEY BROKE UP BROKE UP THEY BROKE UP THEY BROKE UP THEY BROKE UP THEY BROKE UP THEY BROKE UP THEY BROKE UP THEY BROKE UP THEY BROKE UP THEY BROKE UP I feel bad bc i think he really liked her but IDC! I LOVE HIM.............! BEST DAY OF MY FUCKING LIFE BYTCH...!

i miss him so bad...! i hate the way i still love him its killing me so bad...!

Well we just got done grocery shopping.. not much to do around here i am babysitting while my moms at her other job && dad is sleeping..! my little brother is being obnoxious as usual. my mimi && poppa are coming up today i cant wait i miss them so much..!there going to be here in like 3 1/2hrs..! i know my grandma got my something from cape cod.. i wonder what it is...? my mimi spolies me so bad but its not my fault i lived with them for 13 years of my life..! my poppa wants me to move back in with them but my mimi thinks its best for me to be with my parents.. :( i really want to be there with them but i know my dad really wants me here with his family..! ahh my brother && sister decided to watch jaws in the computer room its so annoying i hate that movie...! well im going to go see whats up with rachel && how far away my mimi && poppa are..! i cant wait untill my aunt joleen has her baby its going to be a boy..! in november is its due date i really wish i could be there for her but im 4 hrs away in ny..! but she knows i would do anything for her..! micah~likes the bestfriend..!

Well im bord so i figure i might as well put a new thingy in here...well my aunt is asleep and its kinda weird bc shes right next to me! aahhh....! Im talking to hibbi on the comp. hes so sweet and nice! He is such an awesome person to hang out with! He can make happy like rachel hes like an older brother 2 me!Well im talking back and forth to rachel on yahoo.....she can tell somethings wrong with me... but i deny all lol... i havent talked (except on phone and comp.) for like 2 weekss its cray idk im just not in the mood ever to talk anymore wich is weird bc i usually always talk! Well idk what else 2 say other than scott morgans an asshole and jerk! but ya kno Micah~Still luvs him :(

Here rachel you happy!! I wrote Im done ppl suck

Ok so its 1:47 in the morning im bored and my aunt and uncle are fighting a lil bit i dont really know whats going on between them! I cant get justin off my mind and its driving me crazy! We talked for a lil bit friday night and he was like im srry for the unexpeected random email! and other stuff! I still luv him so much and thats what makes me go insane is b/c i kno i luv him and i know theres nothign between us and nothing hurts more than wanting something you cant have! I kno i use to date him but idk i didnt think it was going to end like this last i knew we were talking and laughing about something then the email saying it was over! It was all a big shock to idk i guess in a way i should have known it was going to end considering we havent seen each other in like a month but idk i just didnt want to believe it was really over! Well justin found out about all of my little things bc my dad has a big mouth! Ofcourse...Idk i think the break up was my fault mostly i should've tried harder to make it last! Well im in towanda righ now and im bored so im going to go find simething to do that might get him and his pictures out of my mind! ~!*MiCaH*!~ ~!*StIlL*!~ ~!*LuVs*!~ ~!*JuStIn*!~

Ok today has been a horrible day cant find 3 of my dimonds! The worst part of all i got home and checked my email and justin broke up with the email said: were through im tired of playing games. i just wanna kno what i did b/c i didnt do anything! I kno ppl have been saying i cheated on him but i would have never done that i finally starting luvin him and then this! I cant even write right now but im moving tuesday! so bye micah~ still luvs justin..........

Ok well im bored but i dont have much to talk about! I just got back from abbys we played soccer in her front lawn for lik 5 hours straight! Well justin dorve by with Scotty B. and (Scott) flipped us off! He didnt stop to say hi didnt wave nuthing! Ahhh!!! he makes me so mad some times! I miss him alot! He can drive around and call my friends cell but ya kno cant call me! Ya well im to pissed to write about anything im going to go call my ex boyfriend! P.s~ I guess i shouldnt get to mad but idk he has a life to but nvm not even worth it o well just have to get over it! L8R ~!*MiCaH*!~