Im so happy yet i really dont feel like living right now! I'm happy b/c me and my friends are finally getting along again! I missed them so much! But anyways ya so me and Mr.Bert (as rachel says) have been dating for 1 month and 5 days tomarrow im happy. But i miss him alot. I just got of the phone with him and we were talking about breaking up but i dont thinks thats going to happen i know there are alot of ppl wishing we did and doing everything they can to get us to break up but i dont know we just gotta put all of their shit to the side b/c the ppl who are just are asses. Anyways i just got back from youth group and i was bored so i fugured i would but something on here it was the best yet worst youth ggroup ever. It was the best b/c i got to talk to asdam and i dont see him in the weekdays so i can only really talk to him on fridays. He is like my older brother an di dont know what i would do without him he helps me deal with the whole ricky situation. BVut on the other hand Kylie James and Jen Colone showed up tonight and i really cant stand them. But it was all around good b/c tim wa there and tj( who finally talked to rachel im so happy he did b/c she was smily all night and its nice to see her finally smiling again!), joe was there( he kept messing with my hair), twevy or travis but we all call him twevy, and ken, and devon fernandez unfortuantly( he is the most annoying highpitched boy in the world) ok this is random but i have a song stuck in my head so im going to put in here b/c its the best song ever and it kinda relfects what im well i just wont say anything on here Unfaithful-Rihanna: "Unfaithful" Story of my life Searching for the right But it keeps avoiding me Sorrow in my song Cause it seems that wrong Really loves my company Hes more than a man And this is more than love The reason that the sky is blue but clouds are rolling in Because I'm gone again And to him I just can't be true And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful And it kills him inside To know that I am happy with some other guy I can see him dying I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna be the reason why Everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside I don't wanna hurt him anymore I don't wanna take away his life I don't wanna be... A murderer I feel it in the air As I'm doing my hair Preparing for another date A kiss upon my cheek As he reluctantly Accepts I'm gonna be out late I say I won't be long Just hanging with the girls A lie I didn't have to tell Because we both know Where I'm about to go And we know it very well Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful And it kills him inside To know that I am happy with some other guy I can see him dying I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna be the reason why Everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside I don't wanna hurt him anymore I don't wanna take away his life I don't wanna be... A murderer Our Love, his trust I might as well take a gun and put it to his head Get it over with I don't wanna do this Anymore (anymore) I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna be the reason why Everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside I don't wanna hurt him anymore I don't wanna take away his life I don't wanna be... A murderer (a murderer) No no no no Yeah yeah yeah I really dont wanna hurt someone but i dont luv him like i luv someone else and it drives me crazy not being able to tell him b/c im afraid with likek blow up in my face and i dont wanna loose what we have! Well i g2g b/c it's like midnight so l8r! Luv Always~ ~!*MiCaH*!~ I luv you Mr.Bert I luv you LostinAustin! lol luv you 2 dont know what i would do with out ya!