Today so far has been a horrible day! Last night was fun other than the fact i had to watch my sister m/o with hottie guy and hottie got his fiends to pin me down and try to mushroom stamp me!!! thats so nastliy wrong! they teabaged reba! hahaha lol! I hope scott works out for rachel! idk tho b/c he kept slapping my ass :( i feel really bad about it to! i didnt do anything b/c that would be wrong to do and b/c i have a boyfriend that i would never cheat on! I luv him so much i havent seen him since like june 9th! Its driving me crazy! i miss him so much i wanna see hime so bad! errr..... im so sad between not seening him and rachel left today for 2 weeks! i miss her already! shes my sister i would die for her! we are never apart i dont kno what to do with out her! Shes the only one (girl) that understands me. Justin does somewhat but i still havent let him in all the way to where he could pssibly understand the way i am! if i would let him he might understand why i do certain things to him and say stuff that i say. but im afraid if i let him in he will either hurt me or leave? idk! thursday and friday at abbys was so much fun! party!Pool around like freakin 2 in the morning! well im going to go find something to do im so bored! I MISS AND LUV YOU SO MUCH RACHEL, AND JUSTIN! Cant wait till you get home rachel :(! Dad was upset to let you go lol! omg rihanna started bawling :( your right she does look up to you the most in the family! :( get home soon plz ! lol well have fun in hershey and main i miss you!