Yeah so yesterday Melissa,Maryam,Me, and little gio went to Venice Beach to hang out. I met up with the guy that I've been talking to on the phone since last Sunday, Joe. He's soooo sweet. We talked, held hands, kissed for the first time, hugged.... all that. Oh wow..... that was sooooo undescribable. Man....I must be some kind of hoe....I just broke up with Mark...and oh yeah... Michael has a girlfriend.????????????? Lol.... oh well... whatever makes me happy i shouldn't care right???? I can't stop thinking about Joe... The thing is .....I don't wanna get hurt. I don't want to cry. I'm scared to give myself to him(not sexually). What if he's not the right guy? I mean.... what if he just wants to get in my pants??? But it feels so right.I mean this is the first guy that i actually feel complete and safe with.... should i go for it? Or just leave it alone? "Love like you've never been hurt" sure i could follow that. My cookie fortune did say "go for it" is that what my fortune meant? To be with him even if does hurt me in the end? I dunno. I guess i am going to go for it. I want to... i'm just scared. But then again.... isn't everyone scared when it comes to that?