*k* Tonight i will get my night out and i am going to tha movie supposly hell though i can never make plans they get ruined. . It weirds how people hide there feelings in drugs i mean hardcore drugs i mean its crazy Yea there is numbness but wants it wears off u know u have to do more so its going make u fuck reality and broke u know... I mean weed is alright but Str8 edge here besides my sqaures but hey rather do that then be stubborn i guess i grew out of that but not dogging people that do u know sometimes it is good to feel relax or have a buzz or even escape reality but not in fuckin crack or coc. or even ne other shit at that. I got my drug my neices and my daughter. Hell i cant believe i got into tha whole fuckin drug thing. Shit i'm going to become an acholic haha yea right i cant stand drinkin much i get shitty to easy to drink cuz fuckin u drink in my house there is someone to make u shitty and boy it ova...but hey in december i will have 8 more months till Shannon here turns 21 hell yea. So what else is there to talk bout how i hate my sister bf nothin new there though huh....Hmmm lets c here....Oh shit me and my friend connie sat on tha phone and talked a good hr and half it was awesome...she lives like not even a 10 min walk from me and i never c here i guess cuz i have alayna and she cant see me cuz she has 2 kids and one of em is a newborn....But hell i will make it to c her if my plans fail tonight thats where i might go. Yea i just might well i am off here lata foodstamps.