I feel like shit. The ringing in my ears is unstoppable. It keeps going and going..I can't have even a second of silence. It keeps going and going..it's like a modem noise. My head is pounding. Like a stampede trying to escape from my brain. And the heavyness of it doesn't help; my neck feels like it's about to break under the weight. I wouldn't be suprised if it did. My shoulder is acting up again. Like knives stabbing my back constantly, staying in like rocks keeping me tence and unable to relax. My chest is pulling foward, trying to droop down. It's like being tied to an anvil and pushed off a plane. It pulls so hard you almost fall to the floor, making you die faster. Except I'm not going to die. The pain isn't going to end. It's going to stay no matter what I do. My brain has followed suit. My vision is blurred. The world is one big merry-go-round and I'm stuck watching as everything goes around..and around..and around..I can barly see they keys to type. It'd be easier if I could use the home keys but I can't! My fingers have lost all feeling. They lie limp as I hit the keys, and another letter shows up on the blurry grey screen, so fast I can't even see it come. It used to be different. My mind moved so fast that I could see it come. But now the lifeless machine is smarter than I. I'm tipsy. I have to constantly catch myself to keep from falling over. I have little control over my body anymore. My forehead is hot. I lay my hand on there, the fever sooths the pain on the part. Untill I realise: it's just an illusion. The heat means it's not going to go. The pain is here to stay for who knows how long. My breathing is heavy, but I wish it wasn't: my throat is so sore, every breath his like scraping razors on my neck. Is this what it feels like to die? Maybe I'm being whiny. I don't know. All I know is being sick SUCKS, especially when it hits this hard. I'm willing to let go of my body, but why does my mind have to go too?