I've figured it out. My life is now a somewhat elaborate plan. As soon as I can go to High School, I will go to boarding school. There's a nice one in Tennessee. Far away from my alcoholic father. Then i'll graduate and go *VERY* far away..to Japan or somthing..and never look back. I'll change my name if I have to, but I'm going to leave this misery behind! I used to be happy-go-lucky. But then my Dad started drinking, and not only is he mean when he's drunk, but for the past tow years, he's even been mean when he's sober! The only real difference is that when he's sober, he gets mad over everything, but when he's drunk, he gets mad over nothing. He ruined my life, and he ruined me. Now I have to stay in the back of the house all the time hiding in the dark, or at school..and my only moments of peace are when I'm asleep.. I wish it would just all end! I want to die!