For some reason, I feel really depressed today. My step-dad did not come last night. He did call however. Mum told him she went to see a lawer and he cussed her out for that then he cussed her out for telling his mum that he came to visit. I can't wait till they divorce. I can't stand him. He always hated me. Never treated me like I was anything but dirt. Billy turned out to make me feel the same. Maybe I am nothing but dirt. Who knows. I hate being lonely. Koda is going out with this William guy. Lucky her. Maybe I should stop trying. Just do nothing but exist and be hated. What a life. I want to move so bad. My friends don't know how I feel. Kat especially. She thinks she has it bad. at least she has aunts that can buy her stuff and lover her. She knows her dad. even if she does not live with him. She has more than I do. Sometimes I feel jealous of them all. They would just have to walk in my shoes for a while. Then they would see.