good song just got back from doin the lights for songs from chicago at skool anndd like my happyness lvl isnt that high rite now like the whole time threw one of the dance numbers all i saw was him but like i cant help but wonder if i didnt say good bye tonite if he would have been sad and like he brought another girl to the show and i was like damn that sucks and ya what i wouldnt give for a joint or a hit rite now poop this week is a sucky week for every one no ones happy 2marrow i go to my dad gf house hopefully that will help ... get me some where new ya tell me a secret

so many memories left here to rot in this diary and many others its scarey how much time has passed in my life its funny cuz the guy who intoduced me to this was sum one i hated , loved , and is/was really good friends with lots of our fights r on these diaryies and i would begin to tell another one but im not gonna cuz mabe remeberuing them all is wat dooms us both to be in hate but thats just my opiniion this year ive gona threw alot 2 times ive gotten grounded about drugs ive gone threw many boy friends and its seems like now i hate them all except a couple ive been crushin on one guy since the beging of skool and i still am and ive been thinkin mabe that my fault with all teh other guys ive dated this year . but the guuy i like allloooottt gives me mixed signals and soon im gonna just burst opout and tell him scream it at him I LIKE YOU and mabe then he will get it my group of friends has grown soooo much and iev become one of teh people who people like to be around and im so happy of it . our group is becoming teh terror of teh skool the groupe people talk about but dont want to go near becuz we look scary and if those fuckers had the guts to actually talk to one of us they would find out we r all just a bunch of softies on the inside our groupe is mixed with goths, stoners, hippies , vegans, streight edge ppl , and comidians we will be known one day for every thing we r and we will all laff as if we werent the people destroying the world even tho ive disobeyed my mom deeply alot this year ive gained many privalages not that the rules really stood in my way ne way but know its nice not to have the worry of being caught when u sneek around cuz theres no need to ne more and with all of this im readdy for next year to come just so we can do sumthin like this all over agin and im planing my life and my words rite now and i know every one else is too i love every one of my FRIENDS and i would kill for ne one of them and one day im gonna take over the world and every thursday will be champange thursday and green shoes will not be aloud on tuesdays b/c weve decided its bad luck just wait

im in freshmen seminar the gayest class in teh world but the easyest so thts good i geuss i cant go ne where but here cuz every website is fucking blocked except thing one and haste isnt working so i guess im prety much screwed lol o well well life is boreing just recently has roxie started smokeing agin she smokes cigs too i dont like cigs but i love blacks and ill smoke with her now but im not hooked on blacks trust me i need to call taylor pooopy i heart zack

im in second hr rite now english im sooooooooo bored i have no friends in this class all i have is maricio and his friends greaAAAAAAAAAAAT lol

i love him but dose he love me back?

Attention! Attention! May I have all your eyes and ears to the front of the room, if only, if only for one second. This table has taken a turn for the worst. Rock bottom and over the edge well it's not like it hurts that much anyway. Upside down and inside out. When I leave here I'm going alone. Well it's not like, it not like it hurts much anyway. Attention! Attention! May I have all your eyes and ears to the front of the room, if only, if only for one second. Will you hear what I have to say? Oh, did I mention when I see you it stings like hell? To the fact that we could have something that'll never happen. Will you hear what I have to? This balance has weighed out our heart's desire. I'm trying to make it alone. Well it's not like it hurts that much anyway. Upside down and inside out. When I leave here I'm going alone. But I'm dying, I'm dying to touch. And it's not like, it not like it hurts much anyway. Attention! Attention! May I have all your eyes and ears to the front of the room, if only, if only for one second. Will you hear what I have to say? Oh, did I mention when I see you it stings like hell? To the fact that we could have something, something. Attention! Attention! May I have all your eyes and ears to the front of the room, if only, if only for one second. Will you hear what I have to say? Oh, did I mention when I see you it stings like hell? To the fact that we could have something that'll never happen. Will you hear what I have to (say)? Attention! Attention! Upside down and inside out. Attention! Attention! Upside down and inside out.

well today was alrite i helped cc clean up her house cuz he grandmas comein down and shes a neat freak lol we got her room really really tidy . nice. then i went to go clean he bathroom and it was really sad cuz she has those bath tube crayons and me cc and roxie rote all over her shower with em and it was soo cool cuz wed have random sayings and shit and so many memoryes were on tht wall and i had to wash em all away tear we each rote one bath room tip here they r : tip#1 by cc - always flush tip#2 by roxie - turn off the sink when brushing your teeth tip#3 by hailey - i dont remember it lol sry tip# 4 by me- dont take a shower high lol i love em but ya i was sudposed to hang out with brenden today but he never calle dme on it an di havent talked to him in like 5hrs and i miss him its sad tht i miss him this much and its even sader tht hes got a girlfriend blah o well i guess and rite now im doing all my hw surpise surprise i kno danica actually doing hw yes for once im going to actully care and get good grades actually work for em y well b/c 1. i need them to get into college 2. i want to prove ppl rong and be like see u can do drugs and get good grades and 3. b/c thne ppl dont suspect things lol im cold rite now and im coloring a paper airplane

ok well since its been like forever since i wrote in here last ill try to catch every one up on my .. life -ok well good news first im in drama i do the lights for the plays we had a compiion thursday we got 3rd so tht means... WE R GOIN TO STATES fuck ya -ive made new friends but they suck -its 420 o clock lol ...sry -my dad has a gf and my mom has a bf -im planing my grandmas death -ive met a guy named brenden hes really nice and funny but theres a down side to him ill get to tht later -ive gaged my cartelage to a 10 and it dosent hurt ne more i hope to go to a six next week -roxie has a bf -my cuzins a druggie -ive lost like 7 lbs -gabriel is talking to me -keegan is the coolest guy ive ever met just b/c its the way he is now the bad stuff -desi treats maxx(her bf) like shit and every times i see it i just wanna punch her rite in the face and tell maxx itll be ok cuz she did it last nite and told him she was going to kill her self just b/c he couldnt come to the movies. and maxx calls me worried as fuck on the verg of tears which tears my heart in to b/c maxx is a great guy and he can get so much better but he loves desi to death and treats her like a priness and she barely shows ne love for him and she will talk about other guys around him like how hott they r and i hate it -brenden has a gf -when i gage my ears to a 6 its gonna hurt like hell -i cant help but think i hate every one all the time -i wasnt able to see my litttle brother and 2 little sisters for a week and when i saw them i bawled my eyes out just b/c i missed like hell and they rnt even my real sisters or brother -alek is here but i havent seen him yet -me and my dad dont get along so good ne more so ya thts all i can think of im bored outta my mind

i think i shall start ritting in here agin i miss it and n ow tht every one has moved on to myspace i can have more privacy here yes muy better

som time next week i hope to be stoned outta my mind more then i ever have been before to the point where im so happy and so out of reallity tht if my brain melted outta my head and on to the floor i wouldnt even notice . then mabe ill forget then past month or so and me and cc and roxie will be back to normal . where we are all happy agin like old times when we didnt even think about what would happen next

i have now become a myspace addict so ya my myspace is ilikefire15 for ne one who wants to check it out or w/e

im a horrible person i did sum thin very rong and very mean i dont really feel guilty or bad and i kno tht i should and i feel bad for not feeling bad about what i did but i cant help it if my concince keeps calling in sick i cant say what i did cuz the person iots gonna effect the most reads this so liek ya mabe one day ill tell her what went rong then agin most likely not

welp i broke up with danny today im not sad idk if he is i wrote him a note more like a sentence cuz all it said was i think we should be just be friends sry so ya then i just sat with deanna and jermey deanna likes jermey but i warned her tht he was a major flirt like times 1000 and he proved it too he went up and had his arm around another girel and i told her tht he kissed chealse yesterday and said they liked each other and here he is all over deanna i think it made her sad i told chelsea about jermey and she got sad also im the barrer of bad news today lol i hope we can still be friends i avoided him the rest of the day but hope fully on wends day things will be ok theres no skool 2marrow yippie lol

today was good i guess i was greezing cold and danny gave me his jacket it was big and snuggley i love those types of jackets lol 4th hr was fun i love 4th hr kegan is so funny i always blow bubbles with my gum and he always trys to pop it but it dosent work and hes liek one of these days one of these days ! lol and i just remebered i can ask him about the shrooms for ya roxie so cha ill remeber tht 2marrow 2 days left till ungrounded ness we walked with austin today after skool i asked him how he gose home cuz i always see him walk past all the busses but he just has a car waiting for him around the conner he offerd a ride home i said ya but then he was liek owait we r going in a diff direction but then they drove off and they didnt go in a diff direction so now i have to remeber to yell at him lol hes funny weeeeeeeeeeee im bored im talking to alek i ehat my dad

bored like a mother fucker my head hurts no one is online i hate u all

hello hello 3 days left till im un grounded on saturday im haveinging a YAY danica is ungrounded party every one is invited me and danny are still going out but idk if its going to last he never talks to me i liek guys who will talk to me i mean i barely kno ne thing a bout him we r pretty much starangers who hug and kiss each other every day i want a guy who w ill be my friend u kno well im tryin to talk with him more but hes uberly shy so ya its nots working lol o well good news is 3 days left and i made a new friend hes really kool and ya thts it lol c ya in 3 days

I AM ALIVE!!! but i have 15 days left till im ungrounded they took my sisters comp outta her room so i couldnt cum on like i wanted too god damn the w orld for tht well i have uber good news remeber the danny kid i was tlkin about well we r goin gout now yay im so happy he asked me out yesterday we kises like 7 million times today i was so happy lol ok mabe its more like 5 times but idc lol alot has gone on sincie ive been on here last sadly im too lazy to tell every thing but i can say tht its been awsome but for a couple days wasnt so great cuz roxie and hailey told danny tht i liked him and he liked me but he was so s hy and couldnt ask me out it was so cute but it was really akward between us for a few days but then juan was just like ok ill ask her out for u and he was liek u wanna go out with danny i was liek ya then he went over and talked to danny and all my friends wen t over there and ya then they came ovver and there liek ok u to r going out no w i was so happy he was gonna kiss me but i had a moth full of gummy worms lol but we made up for tht today well im at the lahermatage the most exspencive condo plce out on th ebeach lol its juelies house so ya its kool im here for the week end every one is going to the mall tho this week end including danny so im alittle jelouse but ill get over it i cant wait till tuesday im missing danny already lol roxie was liek its so weird ur name is dani and his name is danny creepy lol but idc i like it lol weeeeeeee i love danny

ok well my mom shut off her comp to prevent me from going on it when every one is gone mind u tht i can simply turn it on the off but w/e stupid ppl but im on my sisters lab top lol they forgot about this mwhahahaha ok so today was alright my mom didnt wanna drop me off early to skool cuz she knew id talk to me friends and im grounded even tho i have the same classes and lunch as sum of my friends she thinks im going ot not talk to them w/e dumbasss so i stsrtaed crying and tehn she finally took me early lol im not a brat i just kno how to grt my way crying is one of them lol ok so ya the whole day was good i love lunch love it LOVE IT every one is tehre and omg its just awsme after skool i had to go to flamigo rite away cuz my gma has to pick me up i cant walk hiom e with friends ne more an di had o go early cuz yesterday i spent 45 mins at skool talkin to my friends lol well i was so glad i go tto see cc and daniel and cloey so ya i was afraid i wasnt gona be able to say goodbye to cloey cuz she never come suntill later but she was there it made me happy loey and cc and danile walked me to the almost teh end of teh sid walk then cloey and cc left daniel stayed and walke dme all the way so ya tht was kool i like talkin to him even tho i only get to talk to him at lunch and to 4th hr and from 4yh hr i still liek it ah today at lunch we all went out side agin we do it every day now and i started singing mcr i cnat remeber the saing nam e but it gose like this he calls the mansion not a hous e but a tomb an d danny and mellisa started singing along lol tht was fun i love high skool i really do and i never want it ot end even tho i kno it will one day i wont think bout it i wont talk about it but ya i do find my self falling down a rabbit hole into lonely ness i hate feeling left out and its no ones fault really but my moms but she dosnet kno what it feels like i hate the feeling of being alone 29 days

ok hello all yes i have made a new diary y u ask well b/c my mom found my old one and it got me in shit loads of trouble so now i have t his one the old one will still be in use but it will be fake it will be filled with shit liek i am happy and free frolicing threw the flowers junk liek tht so my mom will think im straight edge now lol good plan i kno lol well cya 29 days till im off grounding