Well today is june 30. I havent wrote to you in a day because i have really ben caught up. Well monday some really coo and bad things happened. I've gotten caught up. Well there was a lopng day at work getting ready for the awards and all. I return all my friends calls that called me when i had gotte home... my ex called. I ignored him .. well my mom found out that i had ordered her some thigns from victoria secret because my damn granny told her.... i really dont liek my granny ... she is sssssooo mean. The same day earlier before i had went to work .. she called me a wench.. however you spell.. i really didnt pay attention to it but it hurts to hear some the "s'pose" to love you call u a name like that. i dont care no more.. dont have to see her for the rest of my life. On tuesday... yesterday... was a prett busy day also.. twista was in town.. which means work day for me. I went to the studio tired as hell... didnt get hoem til 3:00 a.m this morning ...and now i'm on my way to work damn shame. How i feel right now is like givng up because things are getting to hard and im only 16,... i hate to see what would happen to me when i actually do this for a living . will i fail ? i dont kno....right now i just wish i can give it all up.. be a kid... welll.. im gone off to work .. bye