Sorry that I never let you go, but let me be honest of all the things my addictive personality cling too much of them all you were the queen. I just don't want to get high anymore in the same way anymore. There are different things that wake me up in the morning. I've figured a way to channel this energy into a totally different obsession. I won't be young forever but at the very least I can start chasing the real things I need. As opposed to what I had always chased in want. So sorry that I loved you for so long and didn't think to realize until two years ago this was an addiction. Forgive me. I won't bother you again.